Born Kink

Growing Up

I used to sleep with my mother until my father went to bed. He'd then carry me to my bed while I was asleep. As I grew older I wasn't allowed to do that. I couldn't fall asleep on my own. My dad told me to imagine another world in my head.

My fantasy world always had strange contraptions that could restrain a person. Mostly it was spanking, either myself being spanked (usually by a man) or me spanking someone (always female). It was always a punishment. I fell asleep with these images in my head.

I grew up in the beginning of the electronic century. My mother had one of the older iPhones, but it did have youtube. That's when I started looking up spanking videos. Always punishment, never anything sexual. It was children my age. My parents were never observant about what I watched, so they never caught on. I was always worried they would though, and panicked when I forgot to clear the history.

I would look up words in the dictionary in private, just for the fun of it. Words like "spanking", "punishment", and "pain". When I was 10, I added "sex" to that list, but the spankings were never sexual.

I had my own iPhone when I was 10. I had access to the Internet, and my entire world changed. Once again, I feared my parents would find out what I was reading. It wasn't sexual, and if if was then it wasn't long stories, only dirty jokes.

I also found out, I wasn't alone about this.