Stop Playing Me

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It was 10 pm which is when visiting hours is over. I decided to stay but the boys thought it was an ok idea. I asked one of the nurses snd she was nice enough to let me stay. I went home to take a shower and change into clean clothes and I went back to the hospital. I walked into Jadens room and he was on his phone

Jaden:hey

Ashley:hey

Jaden:you know you didn't have to stay

Ashley:I know but someone has to stay to watch you

Jaden:oh so I'm on Ashley watch

Ashley:if you wanna call it that than yes

Jaden:fine

Ashley:so what do you wanna do

Jaden:I'm a little tired so I'll just go to sleep

Ashley:me too

I grab my sweater from my bag and I used that as a blanket because I was sitting on the small couch. Which was pretty comfortable not gonna lie. I closed my eyes and I can feel Jaden staring at me.

Ashley:stop staring and go to sleep Hossler

Jaden:i know but are you uncomfortable?

Ashley:no I'm good

I open my eyes and he's moving a little to make space. He doesn't have to either way I'm not going to sleep with him. I know I sound like an ass but I have Tayler and that's fucked up to be in bed cuddling with another man like no.

Jaden:come on lay down with me

Ashley:no I'm ok

Jaden:Ashley please come on

Ashley:I said I'm fine this couch is pretty comfortable

He looked at me and I don't know if he's hurt because I'm saying no or because of something else. He moved back but he moved a bit so now he had his back towards me.

Jaden:ok night ash

Ashley:Night Jaden

Jadens pov

I don't understand why Ashley didn't want to sleep next to me. Is she still mad at me for what I did to her?. Yes I was a dick because of what I did but I wasn't thinking I never do and that's a problem.  I'm not going to force her to sleep with me. I'm not that type of person but I would have been nice to have her in my arms again. As she falls asleep in my arms and I caress her hair. I don't know how this girl does these things to me but she does some how. Maybe I'm in love with her? No that's impossible yes she's pretty and smart but love is difficult you know. I couldn't really sleep having her on my mind so I tossed around in the hospital bed. Looking at the ceiling wondering why the fuck did I take those pills. The fact that Ashley is taking the blame for what I did to myself is the worst.

She did nothing wrong it was all me. I decided to take all the things I had inside of me. All the feelings and rage I had because I had lost Ashley because I fucking fucked mads. I took it out on myself and decided to end myself because I couldn't bare with the endless pain and the doubt that Ashley would never forgive me again. I looked at Ashley and she was looking at the ceiling too. I wonder what she's thinking about?

Jaden:can't sleep can you

Ashley:no

Jaden:me either

Ashley:what's on your mind

Jaden:that fact that you still blame yourself for this

Ashley:well because it is

Jaden:no it's not

Ashley:how could it not be if I hadn't forgaven you, you would be happy

Jaden:just stop ash I swear stop fucking blaming yourself. I decided to do why I don't know but I did. Do I regret it? Some what because if I hadn't done it I would know if you ever talk to me again

Ashley:I hated you so much for what you did to me. You hurt me you know that?

Jaden:you think I don't know that.all I could think about is how much I fucked up what we had. When I called you and you answered everything you told me was true and i hurt you and I'm so fucking stupid for it

Ashley:yes you were but right now I'm glad your alive and breathing and no matter how many times I say this but I forgive you now. We've discussed this and I'm ready to forgive you

Jaden:I don't deserve it but thank you

ASHLEY'S POV

I sat up from the couch as Jaden and I discussed our problems. I really do mean everything about forgiving him. It's been a long time since it happened. I'm happy with Tayler and there is not point in holding anything back. Yes he did hurt me but I'm ready to forgive me. As I want to continue our friendship. I want Jaden back like the good old days when I first moved into the sway house. My nervous ass was so clumsy around him I was always embarrassed. But eventually we became best friends. And I want nothing more than my best friend back.