Stop Playing Me

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It's been two weeks since everything happens. I've collected myself as much as I could and I've given Tayler enough space. I was gonna go talk to him the first week but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. But it's time and I'm ready. I'm getting ready and it's pretty chilly outside so I'm wearing sweats and a hoodie. I was going to wear jeans but it's a little cold. I grab my keys and walk out my room and down the stairs. As I'm walking down the stairs I see Blake.

Blake: hey where you going?

Ashley: I have to go talk to Tayler

Blake: are you ready for that?

Ashley: well it's been 2 weeks so I feel good but I know I have to get this over with

Blake: okay be careful and um there's a party tonight so if you wanna go be ready by 9

Ashley: okay I'll think about it

I walked out the door closing it behind me and getting into my car. A party right now? I don't think I wanna go. It just doesn't seen right as of now. I start driving towards the compound and I get to the intercom. I roll the window down and I hear Kealianes voice over it.

Kealiane: hey ash nates gonna let you in alright

Ashley: okay

She opened the gates and I drove in parking my car. I took a deep breath and turned off my car getting out. I grabbed my phone and keys and put them in my sweats pockets. I walked towards the door and knocked on it. Seconds later nate opened it.

Ashley: hey um can I come in

Nate: I don't think that's a good idea ash

Ashley: please

Nate: I'm sorry bu-

Ashley: please I really need to talk to him

Nate: it's on you though

He moved aside to let me in. I stepped in and Nate just walked away. What does he mean it's on me? I know Tayler told them or maybe he didn't I don't know either way I don't like the response of his question. I walk up the stairs. I'm walking down the hall to Taylers room and I'm fucking nervous. I got to his door and I knocked on it. I waited and then knocked again. Didn't hear much so I decided to open the door and walk in. My heart dropped to my stomach. Tayler and Charly were having sex. What in the actual fuck.

Ashley: what the fuck

He moved from her and she put the covers over herself. Tayler trying to grab his shorts from the floor. Tears were slowly forming in my eyes. Why the fuck am I always crying. Tayler just cheated on me with Charly. I walk out the door and I start walking down the stairs towards the door while I  hear Tayler following me.

Tayler: Ashley wait it's not what it looks like

Ashley: oh really so your not fucking cheating on me with Charly?

I was outside of the house and he walked out shirtless with only shorts on. I know what I said was very fucked up of me but what he did is even more fucked up. Actions hurt more than fucking words.

Tayler: look I'm sorry

Ashley: I came to apologize for what I said almost 2 weeks ago and I walk into that

Tayler: why the fuck did it take you 2 weeks? I wanna fucking know that

Ashley: you wanna fucking know why it took me 2 weeks? It's because I was giving you space but clearly you didn't need it.

Tayler: what the fuck is that suppose to mean?

Ashley: I understand my words fucking hurt you but don't you think you cheating on me is worse?

Tayler: she's just a distraction

Ashley: so your mocking me now?

Tayler: plus how is it cheating?

Ashley: we never fucking broke up I gave you 2 fucking weeks thinking you needed space from me but holy fucking shit seems like I needed it cause my fucking gut was telling me shit

Tayler: I'm sorry ash I mean it

Ashley: oh bullshit we both fucked up but I came to fix what I fucked up but now I don't even fucking care you and I are done

Tayler: you know what fine go fuck yourself

Ashley: that is so low of you after all you have helped me through you still have the audacity to talk to me like that? Your so full of yourself go finish fucking your new girl Charly you fucking cheater

I got in my car starting in. I drove out of the compound driveway. Tears pouring out of my eye's. Maybe that party doesn't sound so bad after fucking all. I distraction from all this is well needed by me. I just can't fucking believe he would do this shit. I'm so fucking stupid it's like every guy I date is always fucking with my heart. I understand what I said to Tayler was wrong but come on.

I got to the house and got out of my car locking it and unlocking the house door. I had wiped my tears in the car hoping that no one would notice so I grabbed my sunglasses and I put them on. I walked into the kitchen to grab a water bottle I need to act normal so they don't suspect anything.

Blake: hey ash how did it go?

Ashley: it went great

Noah: you sure

Ashley: of course why wouldn't I be

Blake: so you guys are still boyfriend and girlfriend

Ashley: yup

Noah: why are you crying then?

Ashley: I'm not crying

Blake and Noah looked at each because they know I'm lying. It's hard to keep my tears in just talking about it. I need to forget what happened less than 20 minutes ago.

Blake: are you lying?

Ashley: nope I'm perfectly fine what make you think that?

Noah: it's cloudy outside and your wearing glasses

Blake: it's okay ash you can tell us of course if you want