A Ray of Hope for Tenya Iida

Rage

(TW: Swearing, mentions of death and suicide, one character snapping at another, and technically verbal assault??? [he says some messed up stuff]

Todoroki's pov: Iida'd skipped class, but I didn't think much of it. The main people who seemed worried were the Bakusquad, who'd all been there when he decided he wasn't going to class. I didn't want to butt into his business, so I just decided to get some food since classes were finally over. Almost everyone was over by the kitchen counter, shouting over one another and telling the poor soul that was cooking what they wanted. I'd just make my soba in my room, I didn't think it was too important. The Bakusquad was the only group not getting any food; they were all just sitting back, watching the chaos with concerned expressions. Well, except for Bakugou himself, of course. He just leaned against the wall with a frustrated expression, which I decided was his worried face. I stood beside them and leaned a bit closer because the room was cramped from everyone trying to be in the same place at once. "Hey, who's cooking?" I looked at Kirishima.

"Iida is." He answered.

"Even though he probably shouldn't be." Denki sighed. "He didn't come to class, he's probably burnt out, so I don't get why he's still cooking." Bakugou looked at Denki for a moment before speaking.

"Dunce face, you say shit like that and then expect us to think you don't know something. We're not dumbasses, so spill."

"Heyyy, chill! I'm just saying! If I skipped class, I'd get so frickin behind I wouldn't know what to do with myself! If I skipped class, I'd have a really good reason to, right?"

"Denki-bro, just tell us!" Kirishima half-whined. Iida walked over and looked at Denki.

"Denki, tell them what? Why have you 6 been over here instead of asking for something to eat? You surely must be hungry after all of that hard work, right?" Iida looked a bit concerned.

"It's not that important!" Denki blurted out, then awkwardly laughed. "I mean, it's not important because what's important is getting some food in this mouth! Ayeeeeeee!" He smiled. No one bought it. 

"Denki, what have you been trying to tell them?" I didn't understand what was going on at all, but it looked like Denki was about to say something. After a bit, he blurted out what was on his mind quickly.

"I can't take it anymore!" He sounded frustrated. "Iida's brother committed suicide yesterday and the hospital tried to save him and it worked for a while I guess because he didn't die until today and that's why he didn't come to class!" Everyone went silent and looked at Iida, who had a blank, yet wide eyed, stare at Denki. 

Iida's pov: Did he... just say that? Everything I'd worked to do: making sure everyone was taken care of and stress free, without having to worry about me, keeping that memory at bay, it was all ruined. Just like that. He ruined everything. "Denki..." I was trying to keep my cool, but I was so angry. He'd ruined everything for me with those few words. Everyone was staring at me, judging me. They knew now; they knew that I was just as weak as any civilian. That something was bothering me. He knew I didn't want anyone to know. He knew and he said it anyways. How'd he even know Tensei died?

"Iida, I'm sorry-"

"NO, DENKI! You don't get to RUIN my LIFE, say BULLSHIT that was NEVER ANY of your FUCKING BUSINESS, and go 'awww, teach! I'm sooooo sorryyyyyy!' so you can walk away satisfied with yourself and live your merry little FUCKING LIFE!" His eyes widened. I was fuming still, it wasn't enough. "You keep on just being an absolute JERK and giving some SHITTY, HALF ASSED APOLOGY and just WALKING AWAY like everything's FINE! Well guess what?! IT'S NOT FINE! DOES THIS LOOK FINE TO YOU?! You think you can just walk ALL OVER ME and get away with all this SHIT! I still remember when you PUNCHED me because YOU didn't understand that I got HURT on something in MY room and then victimized yourself by claiming that I'd DONE THAT to SCARE YOU or something! You YELLED at me for just TRYING TO HELP OUT AND BE A DECENT FUCKING HUMAN BEING, unlike YOU! You get to put in ZERO EFFORT to do ANYTHING and still act like you're LEAGUES ABOVE ME! You don't DESERVE to be in the Hero Course! There's PLENTY OF PEOPLE who put in WAY more EFFORT than you EVER COULD IN YOUR ENTIRE LIFE who DESERVE your spot! Think of Shinsou! He did so much more than you this entire time, he just couldn't get in because of the style of test we were given! YOU only had an advantage because your QUIRK works wonders with machines!" He stood there, silently, just staring at me. I couldn't calm down, I knew I said too much, it just wouldn't stop. "HOW DO YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO TENSEI?! HOW DO YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO TALK ABOUT HIM LIKE THAT?! YOU NEVER EVEN KNEW HIM! IT'S NOT YOUR BROTHER THAT DIED! IT'S NOT JUST 'whoops, it slipped!' WHEN YOU SAY THIS SHIT! IT'S A BIG FUCK UP THAT YOU CAN'T TAKE BACK! YOU'RE A BIG FUCK UP TO BEGIN WITH, SO WHY DON'T YOU KEEP ALL OF THAT BULLSHIT TO YOURSELF?! FUCK YOU!" Mina and Sero went to go to his defense. 

"Hey, man, that's not cool." Sero said.

"Yeah, Iida, what's up with you?" Mina walked closer to me. 

"FUCK YOU BOTH! YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND, YOU DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH WHAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH! MAYBE IF HE MADE FUN OF YOU ALL THE TIME AND GOT ALL HIS FRIENDS TO JOIN IN ALL THE TIME AND TALKED ABOUT SOMETHING THAT'S BOTHERING YOU WHEN YOU'RE AT YOUR LOWEST AND JUST TRYING TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE, YOU'D GET TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO. BUT YOU DON'T! SO KEEP YOUR FUCKING NOSES OUT OF MY BUSINESS!" I paused and looked around the room. They'd all been judging me all along, not even one of them cared. None of them had anything to say. "Y'know what?! FUCK YOU ALL! I'M OUT OF HERE!" I stormed out. I was pissed off still. Why didn't anyone care? Why didn't Denki get scolded for talking about my personal life? Why didn't anyone come to my defense? Was I that unworthy of being cared for? I tried my best to keep it together, I was doing so well! I couldn't believe that all of them thought they were my friends when none of them were there for me. I needed to get something like a punching bag to get all of this anger out, but since I couldn't, I just had to let it slowly fade as I isolated myself, once again, in my room.