A Ray of Hope for Tenya Iida

911

(TW: swearing, attempted suicide, mentions of nightmares, panic, and changes to the MHA universe [changing what happens to a certain character])

Bakugou's pov: Who the fuck was screaming that loud at this ungodly time? What the fuck where they thinking? I heard running, so I opened my door. It was shitty Deku. What was going on? I followed quietly, no one would notice, right? I never get noticed if I'm quiet, they never suspect someone angry like me to follow. Damn nerd's really fucking slow though, he's not even using his quirk. We got to four eyes' room, him of all the fucking extras over here? It made sense, he seemed off the entire time today, but really? What the fuck was going on? Deku opened the door and stared stupidly at him. He was having a nightmare, screaming and talking in his sleep, and Deku, as the dumbass he was, just stood there watching this, not knowing what the fuck to do. 

"Outta my way, bitch, he's having a fucking nightmare, dumbass Deku." I shoved him out of the way and started shaking four eyes hard. It was the only way to snap him out of it, he was really fucking loud and he was already moving a bit, so sound or light movement wouldn't do it. 

"K-Kacchan! You can't shake Iida-kun like that, you could hurt him!" Deku was too fucking annoying. Four eyes snapped awake, eyes full of weak ass tears, and he stared at Deku and me. 

"Bakugou a-and Midoriya? What are you two d-doing here?" He did his best to pull himself together but he didn't have the right shitty mindset. He cleared his throat. 

"Iida-kun, you had a nightmare, Kacchan woke you up." Did Deku always feel the need to talk for me?! Dumbass son of a bitch thinks he's better than me?! Hah?!?!

"Shut the fuck up, Deku! I can talk for my goddamn self!" I held my hand out menacingly, in a position where it could explode at any moment.

"Bakugou, that's no way to treat Midoriya! You shouldn't be threatening him!" Of course he went right into lecture mode again, as soon as he could put up that dumb front, he did it. "Thank you for waking me, though. How did you two know?"
"You were shouting loud and proud into the fucking night, no one didn't notice unless they were deaf. You're lucky shitty Deku and I showed up to shut you up quickly or else Aizawa'd be pissed off right now." I stared him straight in the eyes, I knew he knew I saw him, he'd better get the fucking hint that I saw everything now, he wasn't THAT stupid. 

Iida's pov: Jesus Christ, that was horrible. What was that dream about? An evil version of me, Tensei being ground up, family photo? It was blurry. I could barely maintain conversation with Midoriya and Bakugou, it was horrible. I needed some kind of escape. They left the room, and I decided to call someone. Who would I call though? It's not like I could call just anyone, this was personal. What time was it? It was 4 am. Tensei would just barely be starting his day, but he could answer, right? If he didn't answer, I'd just decide not to call anyone else, that was the plan. I called his phone, but he didn't answer. Why didn't he answer? I checked my phone, and there was a message from him.

"Hey Tenya, I'm really sorry, but you're not gonna see me for a while if you're reading this. I didn't know if I was gonna send this, but I'm doing something else right now. Do me a favor and tell mom and dad I love them, kay? You're probably gonna send something like 'Tensei, this grammar is unheroic! You need to fix this this this and this! Unbelievable! And what on earth are you going to be doing?' You're such a cute little brother, thanks for making things better around here. Bye." What was Tensei doing sending this at... 1 am? I looked again to make sure I was seeing it right, yes, it was from 1 am. I called him again, he answered. 

"Hello Tensei, what were you doing at 1 am?" I asked, slightly concerned at the somewhat shallow breathing on the other end of the line.

"Oh, I just drank somethin', heh." He didn't sound happy, why was he laughing?

"Tensei, what did you drink?" I had to keep completely focused. 

"None of your business, Tenya, it's okaaaaaay, I'm fiiiiine. It didn't taste good, I'll admit, but we're gooooood nowwwwww." Why was he talking like that? What did he drink?

"Tensei, focus please. Tell me, are you feeling sick?"

"Yeah."

"Is it because of the thing you drank?"

"Yeah."

"Was it alcohol?"

"No, alcohol only takes the pain away for a while, I need it to go away for good. Heheh." 

"Is it something made for drinking?"

"No."

"Tensei, does the container say 'keep out of reach of children'?"

"Yeah."

"Does it say 'Not made for consumption'?"

"Yeah." Dear God, did Tensei try to commit suicide? Why? Why would he do this?

"Tensei, put me on a video call and on the normal call, call 911."

"That's a lot of worrrrrrrrrrrrrrk, I don't wannaaaaaaaaaa."

"Tensei, do it right now or I'm texting father."

"Fine! Damn... working in it." I was soon on a video call, and I could hear him dial 3 numbers. I heard the other voice on the line say their typical phrase. 

"Tensei, I'll speak for you, you just try to rest, alright?" He just shrugged and laid back down on the floor. He clearly forgot I could see him. There was an empty bleach container and he looked so sick. "Hi, my brother, who's 30, drank bleach to commit suicide, but it didn't work, at the very least not yet. I'm his younger brother, 15 years old." I then described where he was in the house, let them know which door would be unlocked, and said my address. 

"Well, seems like someone already knows his way around a 911 call! Good job buddy!" Well that was condescending. "Alright, we've got some paramedics on their way now, alright? Now you two just sit tight and keep calm, they'll be right there. Keep your brother on the phone, alright?"

"Of course, he's set the phone down on the floor and just resting, not sleeping though. I'll stay on the phone to keep you updated." This was going to be a long night. After a while, though, they ended up showing up and the paramedics took him away. I made sure to tell them to take the phone with them and to hang up, turn it off, and put it in his left pocket since that was his phone pocket. They listened, and soon I was left with nothing but my thoughts. Why would he do this? Why would he try to leave me alone like that? Was I not good enough? Was that what my dream meant? Did I hurt him by being around? What if I'd hurt him with harsh words, like my dream told me I did? Did that mean that next I'd destroy myself? But what if I already was? I couldn't handle this. I couldn't breathe again. Why was this happening again? I didn't get hit, I didn't go through anything, it was my brother. But I couldn't breathe, I couldn't THINK through all of these thoughts! I needed to get out, fresh air, I could go outside, I needed to breathe. He wasn't going to make it, I was going to lose my brother! I couldn't lose him, I needed him! He helped me so often, he couldn't leave me! I needed him, I needed my brother, I wanted to hug him, I wanted to have him right there with me, telling me it'd be ok. I couldn't breathe at all anymore.