Syn's Deep In My Blood - Book 2

Heaven

As soon as I stepped out of the elevator, my soul froze, and my feet glued to the floor.

There it was, his room. Would he want to see me? Would I bring him angry feelings or... hatred? And then he would never want to wake up again?

God, I should go home. Why am I insisting on this? Even his parents think I'm a threat without even trading a single word with me.

But my urge to see him was killing me. I still had to explain everything to him even though I think Brian already did it. Well, he needed to hear my side of things. If he could hear at all.

I walked to his door with conviction, and exactly when I was about to open the doorknob, my cellphone buzzed in my pocket, making me jump back in startle and close my eyes.

"Shit." I picked it up, and Brian's name was on it. Nice timing.

"Hey Em, still awake? Can't sleep. Miss you."

I stared at his words and picture for several seconds before I took a deep breath and closed the message, turning off my phone right next with a heavy heart. I wouldn't let Brian get in the way of my plans again and that was a definitive statement.

This time I didn't even think twice. I had just entered Jimmy's room and could finally breathe properly when I saw his figure. Then I remembered he couldn't talk, he couldn't move, he looked paler than ever, and his beard was growing. He looked older now, like I hadn't seen him in years. And I just felt that painful squeeze in my chest.

"Hey babe, it's me." I whispered as I walked closer and sat on a chair beside him, not before checking if everything was alright with him, if he was warm enough, if he was comfortable.

"Emily? God... I thought I'd never see you again. I... I thought you didn't wanna see me. I..."

His hand was cold, and I wouldn't let his skin go before I could get it warmer.

"Wow... I was insane without seeing you. I'm so glad I found someone who was willing to help me. I was forbidden to come here, you know."

"What? What are you talking about? Forbidden?"

"Anyway... I'm here now. And I'll be here every night from now on until I can see those mesmerizing blue eyes I miss so much again. Please, Jim, I never pray, but I am praying every day now. I need you back. I wanna make things right this time. I wanna make you happy. I wanna make you better..." Brian's image, the one who helped me get back on my feet, came in a rush, and I had to be strong to brush it away. "...just like I am now. I'm clean, I'm good. And I want to make you feel that way too, baby. It's not that bad, you know. That's all I want now. I'll be here with my body and soul when you come back. Just... please, come back to me."

I held my tears not to scare him and cried in silence after my speech, trying not to sob. I caressed his hand, waiting to feel it moving, to have any signs he was listening to me, but nothing. Still nothing.

I felt drowsy as hell out of a sudden and let my head fall on his bed to go into a heavy sleep.

"I'm sorry. I need more time, love..."

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The moon was shining beautifully through Zack's bedroom window. I couldn't stay away. It was poetic. On the horizon, you could see some far mountains, a lighthouse, and a few ocean waves dismantling on the shore. When I looked at his bed, where he was lying, I was hoping he would be sleeping already, but he was staring mindfully at me.

Yeah, well... I've been avoiding going to bed at the same time as him. Now I always waited for him to sleep before I could lie in his bed. Weird, right? Everything's been weird in my head and in my life now.