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I hated the fact that the schooltrip ended so fast but i couldnt do anything about it so i just sat in the bus and waited until we arrived back to our school. I was sitting alone and looked out the window trying not to fall asleep as i was too scared i might talk.

I thought about the last days with Hyunjin and Felix and i had to smile. Felix pretty eyes as we took him to eat ice cream, Hyunjins laugh and his soft Lips on mine... our little conversations and the warmth of their bodies laying next to me. I had to think about all those things and my smile wanished as i realized that those things had came to an end.

I became attached to them over only this short time and i knew that it would hurt me even more when i arive at home where the cold glares of my father was the only attention i recived.

After a long time has passed the bus arived at the gates of our school. Everyone stood up and took their things with them. Some were greeted by their families while I didnt even bother to look for mine and just walked thru the crowd. I started walking "home" and dragged my luggage behind me.

As I arived infront of the big house i took out my keys and steped in. It smelled freshly cleaned but that made sense since the housemaid had to be here an hour ago. It was silent but i knew they were home as i looked to their shoes.
I hung up my jacket and walked past the livingroom were I noticed quiet noises from the TV. It had to be my father but i didnt bother to greet him so I walked as quiet as possible. I walked up the stairs directly to my room and closed the door behind me.

I sat on my bed and opened my phone. At first I didnt notice any messages so I opened instagram and looked at some people photos. As I got bored i closed the app and looked thru my massages. Even tho i was sure no one wouldve texted me anyways, it suprised me that there actually was a message 'Send me your stuff i'd love to work with you' it said and I had to rub my eyes.

As I realized I had to smile. This made my day so much better. I looked at the message again and as i started typing back I suddenly heard footsteps coming near my room. I frowned. Who could this be?
My question was answered as the person began talking "This fucking little piece of shit, ill kill him today" he said and my body began shivering from head to toe.

As he arrived he agressivly pushed the door open and my eyes widned out of shock. His veins almost popped on his neck and hands. I looked at my father. He was angry i new this expression but i couldnt figure what happned. "Hi dad" I almost whispered and he imdiatly frowned "'Hi dad' shut up you dumb slut and tell me were the fuck you went for the whole week." he said coming near my bed. I grabbed my sheets out of fear. He didnt scream or even talk to me for a long time so i was twice as scared as i ever was.

"On the schooltrip...I told you..." I responded trying not to show that I was terrified. He grabbed me by my hair "Now you're lying too you fucking retard. Your mother was fucking worried you would have left her. What a terrible son have I created." he said and slapped my face.

I didn't say anything. I didn't know what to say so I just let it be and fell back into a state I didnt expirience for a long time. I froze. My whole body stiffned and i let him beat me. He slapped me again and again. I didnt understand why but i just hoped he would stop. He attaced my face first then my body. It went on for about 10 Minues then he finally stopped "You go to school then back home nothing more you piece of shit" he said and left the room.

I couldnt move. I just stayed in the positon he left me. I didnt cry i just looked at the door and breathed, nothing more.

I was exausted.