My Weaknesses

Chapter 11

I find Claire upstairs in her room. Her door is wide open and the light is on. "Claire?" I poke my head into her room.

"When were you going to tell me that you were interested in Luke?" She's sitting on her bed with her arms crossed.

"I was denying it myself. And then last night happened."

"You didn't even tell me about that! I had to hear it from one of the omegas you train. At the dinner table!" She stands up abruptly and marches over to me. "All I want is for you to be honest with me. I knew I didn't have a shot with Luke, you wouldn't be hurting me. Plus I see how he looks at you."

"So you're not mad?"

"I'm just embarrassed that I was the last person to hear about it." She sighs and goes to sit on her bed. "Ok, maybe I'm a little mad that you've been here for a little over a month and he follows you around like a helpless pup. Today when I didn't see you at breakfast I knew something was up, especiallly becuase he wasn't eating or talking to anyone."

"He wants to talk to me after this. What should I do?"

"Well with the way he held your hand, it seems like he doesn't like to be apart from you for too long. I suggest that you don't keeep him waiting." She laughs at the last sentence and I know that we're ok. I tell her that I'll see her tommorow and she winks at me before I close the door.

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I'm probabaly not ready for a new mate. I wasn't ready for my last mate. Luke seems like the type who wouldn't reject his mate over a stupid decsion. You don't ever really know people, do you? I go into my room to find that Luke is waiting for me. He looks nervous.

"How'd it go?" He asks.

"She's not mad."

"How are you?"

"I'm fine, I guess. How about you?" This is turning into an awkward conversation really fast.

"No. You're not fine. What I did was completely out of line and you have every right to be mad at me."

"Yes, I do. I am a little angry but I'm willing to forgive. Especially for the sake of our relation..." I trail off. I'm still having doubts about this.

He gets up from the bed and embraces me with one arm while the other softly closes the door behind me. "For the sake of our relationship." He completes, his voice soft and understanding. "Whoever hurt you in the past...they're gone now. Whatever happened in your past is over now. You belong to the Black Snow Pack and more importantly you belong to me. You have my heart always, Karina."

I don't say anything in return. He pulls away slightly and looks me in the eyes. I feel like an idiot, just looking up at him like this. He smiles and leans in a little. He moves his arm from my back and turns off the lights.

He closes his eyes and plants one firm kiss on my cheek. Huh. Even with the lights off he sense my surprise. "I'll kiss you when you feel comfortable about a relationship between us. Good night, Karina."

He doesn't say anything else as he pushes me aside gently and ducks out of the room before I can grab his arm. Not that I would try anyway. I'm still stunned by his words. How he made me feel with a simple hug. How empty I feel now without his touch. Especially how I feel like a complete idiot with all this crap.

God I wish he kissed me.
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It seems like Luke has the upperhand on me. Wherever I go I think about his lips or his eyes or some other body part. Any time I think about talking to him he's surrounded by people or he's too busy to speak.

He notices my desire to be with him again and he's playing with me. Does he not know by now that I'm not the one to toy with? When I think of a way to mess with him, I totally will.

The omegas continue to mock me about my relations with Luke but I punish them by making them get up an hour earlier to go on my daily morning jog. Except they won't jog. They'll run the entire 30 mile circumference of the territory, without stopping or shifting. I've trained them for this, it shouldn't be hard.