After The Break Up

Chapter 36

Frank's P.O.V

Bob went back in to Gerard to tell him what I'd said. A few minutes later, Gerard started shouting.
"And you believed that?" He snapped. "She bent down to grab his boxers. Bull shit. He was clearly fucking her."
I ran my fingers through my hair as the tears started again.
"Calm down, bruv." Mikey tried.
"Calm down?" Gerard shouted. "Calm the fuck down? Why should I? I wasted fourteen fucking years on that cheating prick. Well no more. Never...again...I'm....done..."
"Bob, get an ambulance." Mikey shouted. "He's having a fit."
I shot to my feet and rushed to the lounge. I froze in the doorway. Gerard was laid on his back, shaking. His eye's were rolled back into his head. Mikey was holding him as still as he could.
"Oh god, Gerard." Mikey sobbed as tears run down his face. "Please don't leave me. Your scaring me. Please, Gerard, please."
Bob walked back in and dropped to his knees infront of Mikey. The glass was still everywhere. So all three of them must be cut up by now.
"The ambulance is on it's way." Bob said, looking at Mikey. "He's calming down now. But you need to talk to him, Mikey."
"O...okay." Mikey stuttered as he pulled Gerard up into his arms. He kissed his forehead then stroked his hair. "Everything will be okay, bruv. I'm not leaving your side through this. I promise." He sobbed again as Gerard's breathing became ragged. "Please, Gerard. Calm down. I can't lose you. I need you, bruv. I love you. Come back to me."
Ray walked in with two paramedics. They immediately walked over to Gerard and crouched infront of him. Bob explained what's been happening from Gerard collapsing.
"Come on, Gerard." A paramedic said, firmly. "Listen to my voice. Concentrate on my voice only. That's good. I want you to think about a place that's special to you. Good. Now imagine your there with your brother. Your having a conversation with him about what you did when you were kids."
Gerard's breathing started to get back to normal as one paramedic spoke to him while the other cleaned him up and checked his vitals.
"Okay, Gerard. Open your eye's now. Look at me."
Gerard's eye's fluttered open and he stared at the paramedic.
"Good. Now tell me how many fingers I'm holding up."
"Three." Gerard said, sleepily. "I'm tired."
The paramedic smiled. "Three it is." He stated. "When my colleague has finished checking your wounds, you can sleep. Okay?"
"Wounds?" Gerard asked, looking at his bandaged hands.
"They aren't as bad as they look." The colleague said as he checked Bob's legs for glass.
Gerard looked at Mikey's legs. "Oh god, Mikey." He started to panic. "This is all my fault. You two are hurt because of me."
Mikey pulled him back into a hug. "Not BECAUSE of you." He said. "But because we love you."
The colleague finished with Bob so Bob joined the hug as Ray and Brian cleaned up the glass. The paramedics left.
Mikey managed to get Gerard to lay on the couch while he sat on the floor beside him.
Gerard covered his face with his hands. "I'm such a fuck up."
Mikey shook his head then grabbed Gerard's hands. "No your not." He said, gently.
"Yes i am." Gerard insisted, tears rolling down his face again. "I destroyed my own home, then my table, leaving a close friend and my own brother to get cut up. I'm a fuck up. It's not surprising Frank fucking cheated on me. I'm a worthless fat fucking freak. You'd all be better off without me."
I snapped. "Don't fucking say that." I snapped, tears running down my face. All eyes turned to me as I walked further into the room. I stopped infront of Gerard, crouching down to look in his eyes. "We wouldn't be better off without you." I told him, my tone softer. "Okay so you broke a few things. So what? We'll buy more. You are not worthless. You are not fat and your not a freak. You are the most amazing person I've ever known. You are the light in my dull life. Just hearing your voice lights up my world. You ARE my world. I really didn't cheat on you. But I didn't tell you when she turned up and what happened. So I'm just as guilty as I would have been if I HAD cheated. We are supposed to tell each other everything and I didn't. I'm so sorry. I don't deserve you. You deserve so much more." I stopped to wipe away my tears.
"You really didn't cheat on me?" Gerard asked, quietly.
I shook my head. "No." I said. "I could never do that. I get jealous when you talk to another guy. Actually I get jealous when you talk to a girl. I can't take my eyes of you. All I ever want to do is hold you in my arms. Keep you with me, just me. Away from the world. I don't kiss and cuddle you on stage for the audience. I do it because I have a major problem with keeping my hands off you. I have a major problem with keeping little Frankie from getting over excited."
"Ewww." The guys chorused.
"TMI, Frank." Bob groaned. "Keep it pg."
Mikey backed away so I could get closer to Gerard. I sat on the edge of the couch as I grabbed Gerard's hands in mine.
"I love YOU, Gerard." I said, quietly. "I don't want to live my life without you again. Fourteen years of loving you and wanting to be with you. That's not going to change just like that. Don't leave me, baby. Please don't leave me." I began to cry again.
Gerard pulled me down into his arms and stroked my back. "I won't, honey." He said as he kissed me on the forehead. "Never, baby. I love you so much."
"Okay, we're out of here." Bob said. "This has gone from pg to triple X in a matter of seconds. We're too young for this."