After The Break Up

Chapter 25

Gerard's P.O.V

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​I stared at Frank, wide eyed. This has to be a joke. Right? But he looked serious. Anger suddenly overtook me. How do I know he was telling the truth about Jamia? Even if he was, I've lost five year's of my life. I close my eye's. I've dreamt about us getting married. So many times. I love him so much. I feel the anger wash away. He looks scared when I open my eye's. I have to say something. 

​"Frank." I start. "The last I remember I was still married to Lyn-z."

​"But you got divorced." He protested.

​I sighed. "Let me finish."

​"Sorry."​​​​​​​​​​​​

​"Like I said. Last I remember I was still married to Lyn-z. I don't remember my solo career. For some reason I even forgot the whole danger days era. Even though it started two years ago. I mean two years from the date I thought it was. I didn't recognise myself on a bloody t-shirt. I had to google my own life." I paused. "I have so much to remember. I mean I don't even recognise my own daughter. "

​"That's not your fault."

​"I know." I agreed. "What I'm trying to say is..." I sighed again. "...I can't marry you, YET."

​Frank stood up and walked to the other side of the room. He kept his back to me as he ran both hands through his hair.

​"I'm sorry, Frank." I said, gently. "I just have so much to deal with right now. I DO love you. But I need to sort my brain out first. I'm not saying no. I'm asking you to wait."

​Frank spun round. He looked angry. "Wait?" He snapped. "I've waited fourteen fucking years. And your asking me to wait? I've waited long enough."

​I stood up. Anger washing over me. "You selfish fucking arsehole." I snapped. "You CLAIM to love me, then you act like this. Get your fucking head sorted, Frank." I walked towards him. "Till then, stay the fuck away from me." With that, I walked over to my bunk and climbed in.

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​Frank's P.O.V

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​I stared as he walked away. I've done it again. Will I never learn? I completely understand what he'd said. He was right. He'd been through so much. He had so much to deal with. And I'd snapped because I'm a selfish dick. What a idiot. I headed for the bunks. Gerard's was empty? Wait. He went to his bunk. He climbed in. Where is he? I went up front. Bob was in the passenger seat next to Ray. Brian was in the drivers seat. Mikey was stood talking to them. We weren't moving yet.

​"Hey guy's." I greated them. "Have any of you seen Gerard?"

​Mikey frowned. "Is he not in the lounge?"

​"He was. But he got in his bunk. He's not there now though."

​"I'll phone him." Mikey said as he grabbed his phone.

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​Mikey's P.O.V

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​I dialed Gerard's number and put the phone to my ear. He answered after a few ring's. 

​Gerard: "Yep?"

​Me: "Where are you?"

​Gerard: "Out."

​Me: "You can't just disappear like that. Not after recent events."

​Gerard: "I couldn't stand being in there with Frank right now."

​My eye's shot to Frank. 

​Me: "Why? What's happened?"

​Gerard: "He asked me to marry him."

​I frowned. 

​Me: "Isn't that a good thing?"

​Gerard: "(Sigh) Not right now, no."

​Me: "I still don't get it."

​Gerard: "He fucking snapped at me because I asked him to wait. He fucking snapped at me."

​I tense up. Anger washing over me as I stared at Frank.

​Me: "He fucking snapped at you?"

​Frank froze up. Fear crept onto his face.

​Gerard: "I just need time, ya know? To sort my head out. I need to remember everything before I can move on. Is that too much to ask?"

​Me: "No, Gerard. That isn't too much to ask. Where are you?"

​Gerard: "On London bridge."

​Panic set in. He's alone. In a city that love's him. He's gonna get overwhelmed by fan's. ​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​

​Me: "We're coming to get you."​​