After The Break Up

Chapter 54

Frank's P.O.V.

Gerard sounded so cold. I really hurt him. Damn it. I didn't want to hurt him. I was only trying to sort a honeymoon out for us.
"I'm so sorry, baby." I said, looking at his profile as he looked out at the street. "I know what it looked like. But there's more to it."
"You slept with him too." Gerard snapped.
"Fuck no." I said, frowning. "Your the only one I want to be with. I'd never cheat on you. I love you, Gee. So fucking much."
"Except you still cheated on me when you played tonsil hockey with that guy."
I sighed. "It wasn't what you think..."
"I saw you kissing him." Gerard snapped as he glared at me. "I even waited for you to pull away. But you didn't. When you did eventually part, you were fucking smiling like you'd just won a million dollars. That is cheating, Frank. Your married. You shouldn't be passionately kissing anyone else. I've never even thought about doing that to you. I never would."
"I know, baby." I tried to grab his hand, but he pulled it away and turned to look at the street again. "That guy was a old friend. He's loved me for a really long time. But I only let him kiss me for you..."
"For me?" Gerard snapped as he glared at me again. "Of course. Why didn't I think of that? I've always wanted my husband to go around kissing everyone. It makes me sooo happy to see him cheating on me." He stood up and glared down at me. "Get fucking real, Frank. Nothing is worth hurting the one you claim to love. Cheating is cheating. No matter what the reason."
I stood up. "I'm sorry." I sighed. "I was wrong. But I did it for all the right reasons. I wanted to surprise you...."
"You succeeded."
"I was arranging a honeymoon for us...."
"At a gay whore house? Classy."
I frowned. "No." I said in disbelief. "At a secluded log cabin with a sauna and swimming pool."
"I'm not into threesoms, Frank." He said through gritted teeth.
"No. I meant just us." I said, shocked. "Just me and you. A full week of me spoiling you. Tending to your every needs. I contacted the guy to ask permission to use the cabin. I offered him money. He said the only way he'd let us use it is if I let him kiss me. He said he still thinks about me and wants to move on. The only way he knew how was to kiss me. I told him I was happily married to you. But he wouldn't let up. I just wanted to give you the honeymoon that you deserve. I wanted to show you how much you mean to me."
"Yeah." Gerard said, dryly. "By kissing another guy out in the open where you can get seen. Photographed. Then the rumours start." He glared at me again. "You know how I feel about this. I told you after I got with Lyn-z. I stopped our antics on stage. Kissing someone else is cheating. You know that's how I see it. I told you that."
I grabbed his hands. This time he didn't pull away. "I'm sorry, honey." I said sincerely as I looked into his eyes. "I was stupid. I really don't want to lose you. I don't think I could live without you again. I've waited way too long to be with you. I can't lose you. Please, baby. Don't leave me. I love you so much."
Gerard sighed. "I love you too, Frank." He said. "But I won't take you cheating on me."
I started to panic. "I won't ever do it again. I promise. Please don't leave me....."
"Stop it, Frank." He said, frowning. "I'm not leaving you. I'm also not going home yet."
I frowned. "But if your not leaving me, why aren't you coming home?"
"Because I need time to think." He sighed. "I need to work out what I want. You need to work out what you want too. Because if we can't agree on our boundaries, we shouldn't be together. It's as simple as that."
I stroked his cheek. "I want you, Gerard." I pointed out. "More than anything."
"I want you too." He whined. "But I can't handle all the trouble. We've been through so much together. Too many bad things. Then just as I think we're going to be okay, you cheat on me. It hurt me, Frank. So much."
"I'm sorry, baby." I said, sadly. "I honestly thought you'd be okay with it when you knew why."
Gerard sighed again as he leaned his forehead against mine. "I'd never be okay with it." He ran the back of his fingers down my cheek. "I'm sorry, Frank, but I'm not going to the cabin."
Tears clouded my vision. "Please, baby?" I cried. "I'll do anything....Just...Just don't leave me. I don't want to live without you. I love you so fucking much. Please...."
He stopped me talking by putting his hand over my mouth. "I already said I'm not leaving you." He said shaking his head. "We can have our honeymoon here. In this town. The people are friendly. Even if they are certifiable. Like me." He moved his hand. "I am forgiving you, Frank. I'm forgiving you because I can't live without you either. I'm forgiving you because I love you. I can't just walk away from that. But if you ever do it again, I'm gone for good. Do I make myself clear?"
"Yes, baby." I said, happily. "I'll never hurt you like that again. I promise."
He wiped the tears off my face. Then he leaned down and kissed me, briefly. "I'll contact everyone and let them know we'll be staying here to have our honeymoon now."
I smiled. "Thank you, baby. For forgiving me. I love you.'
He smiled back then pulled me into his arms. "I love you too, honey."

The End.

Notes

I don't know if I'll be doing a sequel yet. I'll let you know if I do.
Love as always. xxx