Poems

Silence

Silence

Is all I get from anyone
Making lies seem true and making this rivalry seem
Timeless

I want to say
That I'm not alone
That I have
Friends
Family
And I do

But then why do I feel this way?

Alone

Sometimes I want to be
Alone
So I don't have to see
The fakes
So the don't drag me
Along with their crew

So then I blame myself for quick judgements
Which later became true

I'm terrified
To give my heart away
God, help me dare if I
May

I have trust issues
I guess
Does it count if I go through box after box of tissues
And just live my life as a mess

Soon I have
Question

The guilt questions I call them

Why do I do this?
What are they going to say?
Do they think I'm doing this for attention?
What if they're right?
What's wrong with me?

And the list goes on
As I sit there in the dark
It won't be long
'Til the tear stains leave their mark

I'm not writing this for you
I'm writing it for me
Cause only few
Would understand and see

See the real me
Trying to break free
And see
The world that was suppose to be

I'm sorry
If I did anything to wrong you
I'm sorry
If this is sounding sad

So if you can't take the truth
Then just stop
Reading
And go

Because this is the truth
About how messed up this place is

A world where we're forced
Into tears
Forced into believing
Our fears

And I have many fears
Too many to list
And too many for anyone to care about

How could anyone be so cruel
To just walk away
From help

Some say people speak
For attention
Or that they have a mental problem
But they always forget that maybe
Just maybe

They want help

They want to be understood
And feel joy

We don't want any lie
Or anymore fakes
We don't want to die
And do whatever it takes

To have the moment of
Happiness

Silence is a weapon
It speaks louder the words
Why don't you step in
And be a caged bird for a change

See while you fly
Up in the vast blue sky
I stay grounded
And be pounded by words

Not by others
But by my own silence

Many people may see me as crazy or mentally challenged or unstable

I see myself as a normal person
Who's sensitive

As I see my fellow birds that are grounded try to make wings I join to help them and not myself because I know I'm busted up

I remember what it feels like to fly
I have before
Here and there you'll see me up there
But only with my friends
And family

Anywhere else I'm dragged down
By silence
I lost my voice so I can't
Sing

I can only cry
Wasting paper
And killing trees
While I think for the trees sake
And not mine

So next time you have a chance
Go up and break the silence for someone

For all you know you might teach them

How to fly

Just don't let their lives end with

Silence