For that whole night, I could barely sleep. I had to have music playing to distract my mind from what happened. All I could think about was Hawk snapping Demetri's arm, it played and played and played over and over in my head... then finally I get a different dream... I though I'd be different
"Don't you get it, Freya. I'm a looser! All I'll ever be is the kid with the weird lip!" I stand there and watch Eli completely breaking down in front of me, I take a deep breath and put my hand out to him
"Take my hand, Eli. You'll be fine... I promise I will never let you down. You are so much more than you think you are. I believe in you, I know you're strong, I know you're destined to surprise people." He sniffs and takes my hand, he looks up at me with a weak smile
"Thank you..."
I suddenly spring myself up waking from the dream. That memory... it was such a big memory for me. I had known Demetri and Hawk for years before that, but that was the first time he opened up to me about that situation. A couple of hours before he was beaten up, I got ridiculed for being friends with him and protecting him, it lowered his self esteem a bit and made it a bit complicated with us. He though I was going to pick them over him. I never did...
I launch myself out of bed, grab a bin bag and begin to Chuck anything that even remotely reminded me of him. I loved him, but I don't love the man he has become. It takes me about an hour to go through it all. But I couldn't bring myself to Chuck it away, so I Chuck it into the basement. Throughout the remaining sleepless hours of that night, I spent it moving around my room and ordering new things, I just need everything to change, I need to change for the better.
I decided not to go to school the next day... or the day after, or the day after that. My depression was filling my head so badly that I found it almost impossible to get out of bed. I had so much to think about in such little time, my anxiety made it like a race to try and get all these things sorted quickly. But finally, the new morning comes along and I decide to get up, I get up and have a long bath, I get into fresh pyjamas and actually sit downstairs for once. It was now after school times and to my surprise D walks in from the back door
"Hey, Freya. Sorry for barging in, but I wanted to come check on you-" he turns the corner and sees me on the sofa, I wrapped up in one of my oldies with my hair up, popcorn, sweet and drink and watching movies, he takes a deep breath and walks over
"Look, I know you're taking this whole thing with Eli hard, but I'm here for you. You need to talk to me. What's wrong?" I take a deep breath and see all the memories flash before my eyes, just like usual, I look up at him
"My head is a literal jungle, D. I love him... it's not gonna go that easily." He takes a deep breath and sits next to me
"You need to get out of the house, when was the last time you had a shower?" I look at him
"This morning actually." He nods
"Well that's a start, how about I call Sam and we take you out-?" I cut him off
"I need to change. Everything needs to change. I've already changed my room, it's just me now. He agrees
"Okay, Sam department. Hair, makeup, clothes, jewellery?" I look up at him and become a bit happier
"Yeah." He smiles lightly
"Okay, let's call Sam." He stands up with his phone and goes into the kitchen, I watch as he talks to her over the phone, but I can't hear him, he then comes over to me and ends the call
"Go get changed, Sam will be here in eight minutes." I chuckle lightly and go upstairs, I get into my white baggy hoody and some jeans with my grey Jordan's. I have a bit of a Jordan addiction, if you can't tell. Demetri then comes up
