shadows from the past {a marvel fanfic}

Chapter 16: Let's fix this

you slowly open your eyes, you're back at the avengers tower. "hey" you hear someone say, you look around and see Steve sitting next to your bed. "what do you want" you say sighing. "how are you feeling?" he asks you. "fine" you say sitting up, but feeling a sharp pain in your stomach. "you should probably lay down" he says. "no i can't" you say sitting on the edge of the bed, ready to stand. you hiss in pain as you pull yourself up. "Kage, just lay down-" he tries to say but you cut him off. "shut up rogers i don't need your help. fuck off" you say. you stand up and take a few, painful steps. "why didn't you tell us?" he asks you out of nowhere. "what are you talking about" you say looking irritated at him. "why didn't you tell us who you really are" he says in a serious tone. shit, he figured it out. "i have no idea what you're talking about" you say emotionless, trying to sound like you had no clue as to what he was on to. "Kage, i know who you are" he says, very sure of himself.

you laugh at him, an hard emotionless laugh "ha, you don't know shit rogers. now stay the fuck away from me" you say walking out of the room. you walk to the Livingroom, which took you way longer than it normally would. as you walk in you see Natasha and Bucky looking surprised at you. "you should be in bed" Natasha said rushing towards you, helping you sit down. "no i need to fix the device so i can fix all of this" you say. "Kage, we have time" Natasha says. "no we don't" you say to her. "okay, just...calm down okay" Natasha says standing up to grab you some food. "where's Steve?" you hear Bucky ask "wasn't he with you?" "ugh yeah, why was he anyways" you say sighing. "because he cares for you, we all do" Natasha says, giving you a glass of water. 

"yeah sure, that's why you locked me up right, because you all care for me so much" you said, still putting up your hard front. secretly you were hurt, hurt that they were so quick to blame everything on you. "we're so sorry Kage" Natasha says. "we just though-" she begins. "you just thought it was easier to blame me than to trust me, i get it" you say heartless. "Kage i'm sorry" Natasha says, sounding genuinely sorry. "oh i forgive you" you tell her. she looks at you surprised. "what? i don't blame you 2 for it, no Rogers made you all believe i did it, so it's all his fault that your friends are all dead" you say without emotion as you took a sip from your drink. "Steve just-" Bucky tried to defend him. "don't you dare defend him, because it is all his fault. how did you even find me in the first place?" you asked them.

they both looked at you with guilt in their eyes. "what did you do?" you ask them, curious know on how they could know you were there that night. they weren't supposed to know about the secret room. "wel we uhm" Natasha begins. "i placed a tracker on you" Steve said as he walked in. "oh that's great, when" you ask him like you didn't care. "about that" he says swallowing hard. "oh just fucking tell me Rogers, i already hate you any way" you tell him. "i uhm, i placed in on you when you. when you" he can't finish his sentence guilt written all over his face. "oh the night i was crying here on the couch?" you say still not showing any emotion "the one time i actually started to feel like i could trust you". "Kage i'm sorry" he says as his eyes tear up "i should have never done that. and i should have trusted you when you told me you had nothing to do with the dead agents" he says with teary eyes. "you know what Rogers, go fuck yourself" you say before you stand up and walk to Tony's lab, hoping to figure out a way to fix your time travel device, you just wanted to leave here as quickly as possible. 

you look at Tony's blueprints, it looks like he actually figured it out, but you had no idea how this blueprint worked. after an hour of staring at it you knew you needed help. so you walked downstairs to do the one thing you would hope to never do again, ask for help.