shadows from the past {a marvel fanfic}

Chapter 19: How you ended up here

*Stephany's pov*

you wake up and turn around, only then realizing your girlfriend wasn't here. this whole keeping secret that you work for hydra, was harder than you thought. but she couldn't know, no she would hate you. you could live with her leaving you but hating you, no that couldn't happen. sometimes you wonder how the fuck you ended up here. 

*flashback*

you walk down to your dad's grave, he wanted to lay next to his best friend Steve. you never really understood why. Steve left your dad, because he would rather be with this girl he barely knew, than with his best friend. your dad would always tell you stories about the 2 of them, but every time he told one of those stories he ended them looking sad. you hated Steve, your dad wouldn't have his 'winter soldier' periods if his best friend was still here. and maybe, he wouldn't even be dead.

you let tears stream over your cheek. you always knew your dad would die, he even prepared you for it. as the winter soldier he made a lot of enemy's in his life, and it was just a matter of time, before he eventually would be killed. you just hoped it wouldn't had been so soon. "hey dad" you say lying flowers on his grave. you felt horrible as you knew what you were gonna do next. "i" you whisper. "hey Steph!" you hear someone yell. you quickly dry your tears and look at Peter who came walking towards you. "hey Peter" you say to him. "how are you doing?" he asked worried. "i'm good" you say, showing him no emotion. "it's okay to be sad Steph, you don't have always have to be strong" he says. "i'm okay Peter, really" you say keeping up your hard front. "okay" peter says, not really believing it. you take a last look at your dad's grave, before you walk away.

you stand in front of the building, were you really gonna do this. you take a deep breath before entering the building. "good morning, i'm coming for the vacancy of secret agent" you say to the woman sitting behind a desk at the entrance. she gives you a confused look. "we don't have those we're a environmental corporation" she says, looking confused. now you're the one confused, this was for sure the address you've gotten. then a strict looking man walks up to you. "come with me" he said. you followed him into the elevator and as the door closes, he pushes a button and a door inside the elevator opens. 

you look at the 'secret' office space. "welcome to hydra" the man says in a somewhat ominous voice, or that was just your imagining you didn't exactly know. "so you're here for the secret agent position" he ask. "yes i am" you say trying to sound confident. "well then follow me" he says leading you to, what looked like, the boss' office. the man opens the door for you to the office. "sir, this girl is coming in for the secret agent job" he says. " thanks Zola, you can leave" the man behind the desk says. the back of chair was facing you, you could just make out the man's black hair, and you were a little scared. behind the desk was a huge hydra logo, and to the right hung a picture of what you assume was Johann Smith. "so you think you can handle being an agent for hydra huh?" he says. "yes" you say shortly, hoping he didn't hear the fear in your voice. 

"so tell me, what do you want with hydra" he says, slowly turning his chair around. you are in shock. you looked at the man, speechless. he was quite big and hat multiple scars on his face, he was even more terrifying now. "i, i want to fight....for you" you manage to get out. "why?" he ask, looking at you, with a look that looked like he could see right thru you. "because i want to fight, and" you say swallowing hard "and because i believe in your organization". "hmm, and you aren't out on revenge?" he asks. "no why would i?" you ask surprised. "well, seeing the history of this organization. some people are out on revenge." he says. "well i'm not" you say back, this time no emotion in your voice. "listen i can fight, i knew how to fight since a very young age . i'm prepared to do a lot, to help the organization grow to its full potential. i can do this" you say determent. "we'll see about that" he says as he turns his chair around again. "Monday 7 sharp" he says with a cold voice. wait did that mean you got the job?