shadows from the past {a marvel fanfic}

Chapter 10: Opening up

you storm thu the halls, hands shaking with both rage and panic. you finally find the door to the outside and take a few deep breaths. ah, that was already a lot better. you let your guard down for a moment, trying to calm yourself down.

*Natasha's pov*

you are shocked at Kage, as she storms out. you were confused and walk back to the Livingroom, where Steve was sitting with Bucky, Bucky seemed calmer than before now. you share a look with Steve and he walks up with you, signaling to Bucky he will be back in a sec. "how was she?" he asked. "what's going on Steve?' you ask him seriously. "i don't know, Bucky seemed to think he scared her with something" he whispers to you "what did she say?". "the usual 'i'm fine' bullshit, i'm not buying it anymore. because she was literally shaking" you tell him. "shit" you hear him say under your breath. "what? you think Bucky is right, that she's scared of him?" you ask Steve. "i-i don't know, it seems like that, it would actually make some sense" he says, more to himself than you. "what do you mean?" you ask him, not following what he was on about. 

*Steve's pov*

Natasha looked at you confused. "earlier this week, when Bucky walked into the kitchen she acted weird. and then later on when he asked to do some training with him, she really didn't want to. she probably just said yes...because of me" you say to Natasha, realizing you were acting shitty to her that day. "but why would she be scared of him?" Natasha asked you. "i- i don't know. but i hope it isn't for the reason we think" you say looking over at Bucky, who was now peacefully watching tv. "you think he can be the winter soldier again?" she says, and your eyes shoot back at her "not so loud!" you whisper yell at her. you see her look over to Bucky too "he could never right?" she says, a bit of insecurity now in her voice. "i really hope i'm wrong" you say looking down. "yeah i hope so too, hey maybe we have this all wrong and it has nothing to do with each other" Natasha says, as he sees your defeated look. "yeah, i really, really hope so Nat" you say, hoping to god it was just a coincidence.

*kage's pov*

after you had fully calmed down, and had went for a short walk, you return to the building. you walk inside and to the Livingroom. when you walked in Natasha, Bucky and fucking Rogers looked at you weird. "do i have something on my face" you say with that heartless tone again. they all stay silent. "alright i leave so you guys can gossip about me. couldn't care less" you say grabbing a glass of water and walk out of the room. as you walked away you had this weird feeling, were you actually sad about the fact they were probably talking behind your back. you quickly shook it off and went over to Tony's lab, to see if he found anything to make your watch/time travel device. 

"hey" you said walking in "any progress?" you ask him, immediately getting to the point. "no" he said, troubled. "i have no idea what i'm doing wrong, but it keeps failing. and i just, fuck" he says sounding defeated and mad at the same time. but he didn't seem mad at his work, no there was something else bothering him. "can't fucking focus anymore" he says. "you should take a break" you say, trying not to sound too caring. "no, i need to fix this" he says determent. "maybe a break will do you some good. just getting something to drink in the kitchen would be enough, maybe even giving you an idea on the way" you say to him. "yeah and risking running into Barnes, yeah no thanks" he says. wait, was he always in here to avoid Bucky. you knew they couldn't get along, but that they would actually avoid one another altogether. "well god luck then" you say walking out of the room.

after a long day, of trying to find Carl and thinking about a plan to stop him, you fall down in your bed. it doesn't take you long to fall asleep.

you hide behind a table and then you see it, reflecting some light on it, a metal arm. you keep still, hoping he won't find you. he would very rarely get like this, but you knew what to do if it happened, hide and do not make a sound. but with his super hearing that last part was definitely the hardest. you hear footsteps approach and you hold your breath. when it looks like the footsteps disappear you silently breathe again. but then you see the metal arm lift the table cloth, shit.