Love Me Always (Book 2)

chapter 16. Bianca

I feel like I've been punched in the face,my head is pounding.
Was Ryder here last night? Oh god the flash backs of last night slowly coming back to me.

I check the time on my phone, great 9am, I need to get sorted and pick David up as I start to read the unread message.

Ry:- I hope you meant what you said last night, cause I meant ever word I will fight for you, so when your ready I'll be here. Waiting. Always. Xx

I need to speak to him, I need to tell him about David, I cant hide the truth any longer. This could change everything. I'll meet him in a public place I think to myself, least that way if he starts to argue I have people around to stop it.

B:- Could we meet up this afternoon, I really need to talk to you?

R:- Let me know where and when and I'll be there. Dont change your mind on this one Bee, I'm not losing you again.

B:- I havent, but you might after I tell you what I have to say.

Ry:- Nothing will change the way I feel about you, let me know times later. Xx

"So little man, what are we going to do today? " I pick him up giving him a big kiss.

"Mummys missed you." I said.

"Swings again, icy."

"Swings it is. " I smile holding his as we walk towards the park.

David races down the grass verge straight to the slides, there's alot more people out today, couples with there children, or mums with there kids, joggers, dog walkers enjoying the beautiful sunshine today.

I rush after him, trying to catch him up, not getting very far in my flip flops.

Theres a little green metal bench in clear view of the slides, so I tell David that I'm sitting there watching.

I could sit here all day watching his happy little face, steadily climbing up the steps then rushing down, repeating the same process over and over.

"Bee, what are you doing here?" I turn  my head over my shoulder, surely it cant be him, not here, not yet, he cant find out like this, my heart sinks in my chest.

"Ryder" I whisper in Shock. 'What are you doing around this area? "

"I just need to get out and release some stress, I have Lucus and Mia hungover still, laying on my living room sofa with pizza boxes everywhere. " he huffs.

"I cant talk I wasnt much better this morning." I laugh.

"So you havent answered my question, what are you doing at the park, and sitting on the bench?" He looks around trying to spot something or someone.

"I well, we had to go out today and get some fresh air." I shutter

"Who, you and David? Are you babysitting him this morning." He looks to my eyes with intent.

"Umm, yea me and David, his just on the slides. I should probably start getting him home now, but I'll catch up with you later on." I stand abruptly wanting to leave as quick as possible.

"Yeah, sure no problem." Said Ryder as he still stood there.

"David, David." I yelled waving my hand in the air.

He looks up and runs over.

"Come on little man we need to get going."

"But I need icy." David winges.

"No icy, maybe another time, I need to get you home." I try to reason with my  nearly 3 year old as I hold his hand trying to walk us away from an on looking  Ryder.

"Mummy, promised icy. "

I gulp. The alcohol from last night rising up, I think I'm going to be sick. We need to leave, I pull David along with me, I'm not prepared for this not yet, not infront of our son.

"Bee, wait. Hold on!" I hear Ryder shout trying to catch up with us.

"BIANCA!!!I SAID WAIT!!!" Ryder now yells.

I stop, turning to face him, a few onlookers staring or commenting about are behaviour.

The brown of his iris had turned almost black with anger as he starred at me. His breathing heavy, his teeth gritted.

"Let me look at David? Bianca." I could here the acid in his tone.

"You cant, I need to leave. I'm sorry" I whisper.

"Im going to ask you one more time Bianca, let me look at David now, before I come over there and look for myself. " Ryder's tone becoming  venomous.

I pull David out from my shielding arms and turn him to face Ryder.

He doesnt need me to tell him, his worked it out for himself. They both look at each other with the same eyes, the same thick brown rustled hair.

Ryder drops to his knees in totally devastation.

A single tear escapes my eyes, what have I done? I've caused all this heartache.

Then I do what I always do best, I run.
I lift David into my arms and I run away as quickly as I can, second glancing once to see Ryder hasn't moved from the spot I left him in.