Love Me Always (Book 2)

chapter 38. Bianca

"Ouch" I moan out. My head feels all groggy, opening my eyes to see wires attached to my arms.

"Why am I here?" I ask myself thinking back to what happened as I look around the hospital room. The clinical smell of disinfectant hitting my nostrils.

Sitting my self up a little better, In walks a female nurse or doctor.

"What happened?" I question looking at her.

"You were brought in by your partner, you seemed to have blacked out and fainted, he was deeply concerned about you, so we ran some test and are just waiting for some more results, I should have them in the next hour or so." She insists. "However I have one question, did you know your   pregnant?" I looked to her shocked. "Pregnant?" I gasp. "But how, I mean, i cant surely not." This is too much for my head.

"Yes, your roughly about 6-8weeks, but we will take you for a scan shortly so we can check all is ok and an accurate reading of how far into the pregnancy you are. " She places some notes onto her clipboard.

"Where is Ryder?" I look around the room.

"He is currently in the waiting area, would you like me to send him through now your awake?" She smiled softly at me.

Automatically I have flash backs at him missing David's party, the fight we had before I was about to leave.  My eyes start to tear, his harsh words cut me like a knife.

"No." I snapped. "Sorry, I'm just not ready to see him yet." I whisper wiping the wetness from my cheeks.

"We are going to keep you in over night, so get some rest. I'll make your partner's aware your ok and send him home. "

I cant believe it, I'm pregnant again. Everything is happening to fast, I mean I know I love Ryder, but i havent seen him properly for the last month,and the fight we had last night, how will he react when he finds out about this?That his going to be a dad again? His still only learning to bond with David and now this.

I must drift off to sleep unaware of the time when I hear the creaking of the door open and close before I close my eyes again.

A warm touch grazes my hand so softly stirring me until I open my eyes.

"Hey baby. You scared me for a second? " Ryder takes a breath. "Hiw are you feeling?" He grips my hand tightly like he cant lose me.

"My head is pounding, what are you doing here, I thought they told you to leave? How did you even get in? " I gentle lift myself up so I'm sitting now.

"They did, but I stayed I had to make sure you were ok, I'm not leaving you Bee, I'll always be right here waiting. " He kisses my hand.

"I remember us having an argument and you implying I was going to cheat then I just I dont remember everything just went black."

"I know, I'm so sorry, I just got worked up, I was exhausted from the flight and coming home late and fuck." Ryder shoves his hand through his hair. " I just fucked up, I got jealous seeing you dressed like that and I just fucking missed you so much that all and if i could turn back the clock i would. " He sighed.

"Have the doctors said any more they wont tell me anything?" Ryder looked at me with concern , I cant find the words to tell him his going to be a dad again, nothing comes out I feel like I'm just staring into space.

'I just have to wait on some more blood test then I can go home. They said I can be discharged first thing in the morning, I think it's just exhaustion." I lie.

"Ok, well it's getting late and I really needed to see you to make sure you were ok, I'm going to go home and check on David and I'll come straight back with some clothes and a wash bag for you so you can get some proper rest then I'll be straight back in the morning to collect you, so we can celebrate David's birthday together as a family. "

"Ok." I yawn.

"I love you Bianca Kingston, I just want you too know that you mean the world too me, you and our son." He softly places a kiss on my forehead.

"I love you too." I smile.

I'm awoken first thing in the morning to the Doctor and a porter, who have booked me into have an ultrasound.

Laying down lifting my PJ top up and bottoms lower under my waist, I watched the monitor as they placed the cold jelly on my stomach pressing firmly into me, i watched and wait in anticipation. My mind was going into over drive, surely I would have known if I was pregnant, but as I watched the black screen soon a little dot appeared it looked no bigger than a grape. A single tear dropped down my face as I took it all in. That was my baby right there. Our baby.

"Everything looks absolutely normal, it's too early to check measurements of baby properly, but theres babys heart and its beating perfectly." The midwife points to the screen. "You are showing as 8weeks and 5days, we will refer you back to your midwife and GP and request another scan around the 12 week mark.

The Porter pushed me back to my room, I happily offered to walk but they insisted I have a wheelchair as they were concerned with my dizziness and headaches.

Once i arrived back into my room, the doctor was standing by the door waiting.

"Your bloods have come back they are all fine,apart from one, your suffering with anemia."

"Anemia?" I look at her confused.

"Yes, it's an iron deficiency, many woman get it during pregnancy, it can be treated with medication, but you really need to be carefully and try not to stress your body too much. " 

"So the dizziness, headaches this was all part off it?" I continue to ask.

"Yes they are just a number of the symptoms, you may also find you get fatigue and weakness of the body, but please dont worry, we will pass all this onto your GP and make sure we have regularly appointments and scans to make sure the baby is growing safely as in some cases if we cant control it you may go into premature labour. " The doctor now passes me a prescription for some tablets.

"Thankyou."

"Not a problem. I've got your discharge notes ready, so you can leave when your ready, do you need us to call anyone for you?" She asked.

"No.its fine. Thanks." I smile softly.

Packing up the rest of the bits into my bag, I make my way out if the maternity unit. As I walk pass a room, the door is open and inside theres a young lady probably a couple of years older than me, her partner with his arm around her shoulder as she holds their newborn child in her arms. Watching them play the part of a loving family makes me realise I need to be honest with Ryder, I cant hide away from this and not again.

"Hey, it's me." I said quietly.

"Oh baby, how are you this morning?" Ryder talked back.

"I'm fine, they have just discharged me so can you come pick me up please?" I almost sound like I'm pleading into the phone.

"Of course baby, I'm on my way. David isnt awake yet, so we can get you home in time to celebrate his birthday. Mum is still here so she'll keep an eye on him until we get back." I hear him slamming the front door.

"Ok, I'll wait outside the main entrance by A&E unit. " I state.

Walking to the front entrance, I pass the hospital pharmacy picking up my medication followed by a little gift shop with news papers magazines, I stop as I notice the little t-shirt in the window, going inside I check to seeing they have David's size as this would be perfect for him.
Grabbing the top, I place it in my back pack and head outside, im hit by the instant cold breeze of fresh air.

I notice Ryders car coming around the corner not too much longer as I start to walk over to his parked car.

"Let me take that for you?" Ryder insists as he takes my backpack out if my arms placing it in the boot.

"Thanks. " I whisper.

"Come on let's get you home, you can go freshen up and I'll get breakfast ready for us all. " he kisses my lips before driving home together.