His Baby

Chapter 13: What to do?

-Rays POV-

After Jemima asked the question of us living together the table went silent. I could tell that Jemima felt bad.

I finished eating my food and put my dish in the sink. I went over by the table and ruffled Jemima's hair again. Not to tease her, but to make her feel better. I know she didn't mean to make Emma uncomfortable.

"It's alright Jem, I know you didn't know this would happen. Shake it off okay," I whispered to her.

I went over to Emma as well, "Are you staying the night?"

Emma was almost done with eating, she just had to finish the orange she has in her hand.

"Yeah I am, we have to talk about some stuff anyways," she replied to me putting her orange peels in the trash.

"Okay, I'll wait for you upstairs," I replied going up the stairs.

I sat back down at my desk and yawned. I've been so damn tired lately. I looked down at the papers in front of me. I had one for homework, one for jobs, another for a list of things we need to get for the baby sooner or later, and lastly a drawing for Emma that I have been working on for the past month.

I grabbed some colored pencils from my art drawer and started to finish the colorings on it. I was almost finished with it. I was going to give it to her on her birthday, which was a week from now.

I don't really know when I started to like Emma more than a friend, but I know it was around the time of my birthday.

Although all of my friends cared for me, Emma always seemed to care the most. That goes for anyone in the friend group though. She would go above and beyond to make sure everyone was happy. I liked that about her.

I mean she was perfect.

While doing the last touches of Emmas drawing I started to feel more tired. I put all my papers away and pencils, and went to my bed.

~Emmas POV~

"Does that mean you and Ray are going to live together?" she asked me finally looking up from her plate and to me.

The tables went dead silent. We never discussed this. I, nor Ray even brought it up to either of our parents. "Umm, we don't know Jemima."

I feel bad now. Jemima I know is feeling guilty, and now there is this awkward atmosphere at the table.

Ray quickly finished his food, and he went over to Jemima. I noticed her eyes about to go red. She was about to cry. Ray put his hand on top of Jem's head and bent down to talk to her.

He was always so kind to his family. I loved that about him. I know he will make a good father.

Me and Ray have a conversation after he is finished talking to Jemima. He then goes upstairs, while I finish eating.

-10 minutes later-

I finally go upstairs and go to Rays room.

"Ray we ne-"

I stopped when I saw him asleep in his bed peacefully.

Why do I always find him asleep?

I laughed to myself and approached the bed. I sat on the edge of the bed and thought to myself.

Are we actually going to live together? I mean I could, well, I technically do now, but still. Is that going to be good for us, not just the baby, but for us.

It just wouldnt feel right to have the child grow up in an environment that I didnt have.

What about Ray and his family though?

How would they feel?

They love me but, is it for the best?

Jemima has to go to school, and Uncle and Aunt still have to work. A newborn baby crying all the time isnt good for them.

Ray and I should be fine, but we, well mainly I, know nothing about taking care of a baby. Ray has had a bit of experience.

Ray and Jemima always had a sibling bond, so it was natural for him to babysit his younger sister and help out when he wanted to. I, on the other hand, have no experience whatsoever because I dont have siblings or that sibling bond with someone younger than me like Ray does.

Ahhh! Am I going to be a nu-

"What are you doing? Sleep."

"Jesus Ray! You scared me."

Ray sat up and sat by me on the edge, "You doing alright?"

"Not really."

"What's wrong then?"

"Ray, are we going to be good parents? I mean we are kids having a kid. Its scary to think about. I-I dont want to fail this child. I mean theyre going to be a reason why I live. What happens if we arent good enough? What happens then?"

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Late, I know, and the other chapter is probably going to be late too. I know I said that I was going to start posting again but I have been getting distracted. I have my sports, school, and a lot of other things. Some days I want to chill, and other's I just don't have the motivation. Sometimes I have a write's block on what to do for ideas and I don't get the job done. But, I am not making excuses for myself. I just wanted you guys to know and say sorry in advance.

also I might re-write 100% idk yet. I like it but kinda don't like it at the same time. maybe I will just re-write some chapters. who knows. IF ANYONE HAS IDEAS PLEASE TELL ME I AM STUGGLING HERE. I had something planned out for all 4 of my books by then they just went down hill. So please put suggestions!

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