Searching For A Melody (Saimatsu Story)

Problems

This episode may talk about some potential sensitive subject which is DID. Read at viewer discretion for some parts of the episode. But most will be fluff. Enjoy.

I awake with a freight from my sleep, not this again. My eyes adjust to my surroundings and Kaede is sitting right next in a chair," I knew I should've kept pushing on what's wrong with you. You're screaming at night and it sounds like your in pain, you keep calling my name for help, and you often hyperventilating during the dreams. These aren't normal nightmares, are you ok?" I love Kaede but damn she couldn't have asked me this later! " Kaede it's 6:35, let me wake up before you start bombarding me with fucking questions!" She looked down and her breathe became a quiver, I feel bad all she's doing is caring for me, I shouldn't be so rude," I'm sorry, I didn't mean that it's just that, I've, ... nevermind." She tried to stop me, but I walked out on her. Nobody is awake at all just silence, I'm a mess with just anger issues and I can't even think straight, what's wrong with me? " Hey Shuichi you ok?" " What do you want Kaede!?" I turn around and see Jayden in the other side of me," I'm most definitely not Kaede, but you seem stressed, stuff going just a tad bit fast for you to handle?" I felt my blood boil over," Jesus why does everyone keep questioning me, I'm sick and tired of it!" I yelled," The reason you yelled at Kaede was because you feel like she didn't understand what you felt, how you felt," My blood just stopped boiling, it was as if someone turned off the fire within me," My mother was a therapist always taught me how to deal with situations like this, my father was a lawyer taught me to stay cool under pressure. Just admit you didn't mean no harm when you yelled, just a defense mechanism."

I started to break down and realized that I've been screwing up everything," Shuichi I know how you feel, there's a lot going on just it's going to fast for you to handle. Trust me I've been down that road before." He put his hand on my shoulder and kept it there, it was shaky, like really shaky," Your hand, are you ok?" He reassured me," Trust me, the thing that we should be worrying about is you. You want to head to my room?" I would feel guilty if I said no, so I nodded," Good, I just need to go to do something first." He smiled and went inside, I need something to fulfill me like something.

Jayden's POV

Odd, something like this always happens before it just goes blank, completely blank. I take drink of water and let Shuichi inside," I'm boring aren't I? Trust me just trying to blend in with everyone else." He smiled," No just a bit average, weird considering if what ultimate was going to be." I laughed,"You want water? You look tired." I smiled then my mind went blank.

Shuichi's POV

Jayden stood up and well just stood there and closed his eyes then opened suddenly, he sat back down but he acted differently then he normally does, he looked at me and laughed loudly," I know your fucking confused, but I ain't fucking Jayden." I looked him," Are you ok?" He groaned loudly," This is why I hate meeting new people! I have to explain this shit everytime! Wait, you're a detective figure this out yourself." I had no clue he wasn't acting like he should, trauma, sudden change in vocabulary," DID, isn't it. You're not acting the same you talk about Jayden like he's someone else." He slammed the table," I hate 'DID' just fucking say split personality disorder. But trust me I hate Jayden, he's so fucking bland. Most of his outbursts are me, I mean it's fucking boring. And unlike Jayden, I have no problem hurting you." He pulled out a mini pocket knife and put back in his pocket," If you aren't Jayden who are you?" He scoffed," Another fucking question, what happened to Mr. Don't ask me any damn questions. If you must really know, Alan. The most basic name ever. Way to old for this body, I'm 36 for god's sake, I mean whatever he hears i hear, but whenever I'm in control he doesnt hear a thing. I mean it sucks but ruining this kids life could be fun and anyone in it, but I do like you so maybe I'll leave you out of this."