Natasha Romanoff x Reader

Fireworks

 Anonymous asked:

okay so i had an idea for new years. what if reader has ptsd from fireworks and nat knows that you're afraid of them so she comforts you. AND MAYBE EVEN a new years kiss from her idk. anyways.. happy new years! thank you for the wonderful stories :)

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Dread. Pure dread is what you are feeling at this moment.

Christmas being around the corner wasn't the issues here, it was new years eve. God you hated it, it wasn't because of the celebrations for a new year but what came during it.

Fireworks.

It was hell on earth, loud banging, multiple times, everywhere you turned, it was the worst thing anyone could experience, maybe it wouldn't be so bad if it didn't remind you of what Hydra did to you as a kid.

You were sold off by your parents to them at a very young age, apparently money was more important than you. You hated your parents throughout your life until Nick Fury took you in to become the Avenger.

At first you were skeptic, how couldn't you be? They were a group of people who went out of their way to save the word without really expecting any rewards but with Hydra you had to earn good stuff, like eatable food.

The fact that you didn't have to go out on a mission and come back thinking you are able to get scold for knocking out 2 men instead of 5 like they wanted, it was a real shock.

You never thought there would be people who would relate to you, but there was, Natasha Romanoff was one of them. When you first joined there was a spark of interest in her at the sight of you, you seemed timid and afraid every time your name would be called out.

She never really spoke to you until the two of you went on a spy mission together..

3 Years ago..

"Okay, Romanoff as you're the best spy in here, I am assigning you for mission with-" Steve paused as he looked around the room to see who he can send with the Russian.

You were late to the meeting, it wasn't intentional, the meeting was scheduled in the morning and you knew about it but for some reason your alarms didn't go off.

You walked in and Steve smiled "Y/n"

You looked up at him with slight fear at your lateness "I am sorry for being late-"

Before you could finish, he continued "You'll go with Natasha for the spy mission together tonight"

It was as if your words disappeared from your brain as you tried to process what just happened, Natasha rolled her eyes at you "Just don't be late"

You swallowed hard, she was cold towards you since you joined, you never understood why and even though you tried to be as polite as you could get, she was just cold.

Everyone reassured you that it takes some time for her to warm up but you weren't stupid, she just didn't like you and no matter how nice you could be to her, she just couldn't stand you.

You nodded at her and took a chair that was empty as Steve continued to brief you and the team about the mission just in case it went wrong which only gave you more anxiety.

Natasha was known to never fail missions and that what was getting to you, you always managed to missed a detail which nearly blew the whole mission but you were always saved and you knew if that happened Natasha would only hate you more.