Natasha Romanoff x Reader

The Impact (Part 2)

Anonymous asked:

Hi just finished reading Mistake and i loved it but was wondering if we could have it from Nats point of view and maybe how the team feels after they realized that they were at fault as well and maybe the mother going off at them and telling them too f#@k off when it's time too bury her especially Nat cause she was the main cause of pain for her and basically tells them that they don't deserve too be heroes.

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Natasha has seen a lot of deaths in her life, especially since being an assassin and an Avenger, death just follows her everywhere.

She always known that she wont be able to run away from it but at least she wont have to see it within her teammates because that was her family.

But now it was one of her teammates, it was someone she loves. She acted like a bitch because she was always afraid and it was a big change for her.

No one took interest in her in the way you did, you cared, you loved her and you were so understanding with her that it melted her heart but also scared her to death.

The only way to protect herself from that was lying and cheating and just running away from feelings which was a mistake for her.

Now she lost you, just like she knew she would but this time it was her fault.

It was all her fault, she was responsible for this, she drove you to this state of wanting to kill yourself, how could she ever live with herself knowing this? Witnessing this?

She spent most of her days by your body which was stored in the mortuary of the tower, for some reason Tony had it in his building but no one questioned him for it, it was his building, so when Natasha found out where you were kept, she sat there crying her heart out as she whispered her apologies to you.

You were taken not long after from there as it was your mothers request, so Natasha moved to your room, it was a lot more cleaner than what she has found at first.

Wanda was the one that offered to clean out the blood and whatever there was that was messy but she wasn't able to do it all as Natasha nearly threatened to kill everyone if they touched your belongings before she could.

She would spend most of her days in your clothing until your scent was barely there, she would cry her nights on your floor as each time she tried to fall asleep, your dead body would be there haunting her every step.

The rest of the team was a little bit better than Natasha, they were able to function better than her until they were left alone with their own thoughts which only worsen their state of mind.

They would spend their free time just remembering and speaking about their memories about you, how you would be so relaxing to be around.

The team have been biting their heads off over a stupid mission, most of the team like You, Steve, Wanda, Bucky and Sam wanted to take on a mission that was a lot different without backup.

Whilst Natasha, Bruce, Thor, Tony and Peter wanted to be there in case of it going wrong but like always there was a disagreement, causing the team to basically want to kill each other.

You decided to go out to get some food in hopes that when you come back everything will be sorted and you won't have to listen to insults being thrown at each other but that was impossible with these lot.

You walked in with bags of food and no one noticed "I told you Tony! We are going to do this without back up"

Tony seemed to be doing something on his suit rather than trying to engage in this argument but having Steve going against his word moved him "No Steve, you will listen to me and we will tag along with yous, why suddenly you don't want back up"