Fallen Determination (Optional Chara x Reader)

Chapter 18: The Judgment

(A/N: Some long and cruel stuff going on here, so be prepared

Also I was really exhausted at the end of this chapter, but hope you'll still like it. Have fun reading!)

I got confused by Chara's question. What did she mean "why"?

But she just stared at me with same cold, but full of hatred eyes while all I could do is just stand on one place in confusion... And fear. I wouldn't mind at all that she hates me at the beginning, but now...

No, she can't hate me! She's the most important person to me... SHE CAN'T!

- W-what? - I tried to answer, but this reply was just terrible since I started to stumble with each word I was saying, - What do you mean?

But Chara took her time to answer after that. Every second of this dead silence felt like hell and, to think about it, yesterday everything was much more better.

Everything was much better before that brat came here...

- Why did you do that? - she finally sighed. She looked... Exhausted and hurt. Deeply hurt, - Why did you give me hope? Just to crash it immediately after that and make my life hell again?

- Chara, I...

- I trusted you, - Chara stated. She wasn't even frustrated right now, but... I could see how her eyes are slowly filling with anger, - I thought that you can REALLY beat Shifty and you're different from that maniac... But I guess... I guess, I was wrong.

Every word that she was saying to me hurted me. It felt even more painful than Shifty's chainsaw destroying my stomach. I tried to defend myself, but I already knew that I simply don't have enough arguments.

- CHARA! - I unintentionally exclaimed in panic just to interrupt her, - I'm not Shifty! I don't want to kill you and I don't want all this hell to happen as much as you do! Please! Trust me, I'm on your side and always will be!

And yet again there was a silence and all I could her is how birds were peacefully signing outside. That was really nice atmosphere, but our dialogue... It was getting worse and worse...

- Papyrus, - suddenly Chara started, - He was my best friend. Toriel. She was my mom. And Asgore - my dad. Everyone is gone because I decided to trust you back there.

But after that Chara couldn't hold her hate anymore and clenched her fists. She tried her best to not attack me, but... Her patience began to fade away.

- I was stupid enough to trust you. I should've just BEHEAD YOU RIGHT THERE!

- Chara, wait! I wasn't the one who killed them!

- Oh yeah? - Chara bared her teeths, - Then who did that?! Shifty?! Hell, even Shifty only took away Asriel from our family. But I'm starting to doubt HE was the one who did that at all.

- I didn't kill Asgore and Asriel! I simply don't have reason to hurt you that badly!

- THEN WHY DID YOU HAVE A KNIFE IN YOUR HANDS?! - she shouted in anger, but after that took a deep breath to calm down, - You know, I cared about you. Even after Asriel's death. I watched over you, I tried to... Protect you from death. From my mom's wrath or from Shifty in the first place. But when I saw how you literally beheading my mother... I started to realise.

- I WASN'T THE ONE WHO DID THAT!

- Then who was? I saw exactly YOU.

- It's... Something inside of me. Something that... controls me. I tried to knock out your mother, but... It took control away. I DID NOT WANT FOR THIS TO HAPPEN! I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER IT!