Dead Heart

Hungover as Hell

I woke up to the sun blinding my eyes. It was only spring but it already felt like summer here. I let out a long yawn and found myself wearing one of Damian's big shirts. Everyone was still sound asleep, Toby wrapped around Hannah, she looked so in love, even when she sleeps she sleeps with a smile now. Alex fell asleep literally on top of Ajax, he was huge compared to her. He arms were hanging on either side while Alex was curled up in a ball on top of him. I looked over at Frankie on her bed alone, she loved her space of course, when I scanned her bed I saw that she had fallen asleep with a phone in her hand. 

When I was just about to climb out of bed, I heard a loud passing of gas coming from Ajax's direction. I grabbed my pillow and threw it at him. "AJAX WHAT THE HELL HAHAH ARE YOU AWARE THAT YOU JUST LET OUT THE LOUDEST FART IN HISTORY!" 

Alex groaned waking up, "Oh my god AJAX HAHAHHA YOU STINK!" 

He woke up while stretching, "Oops my bad, hey its natural! You're gonna have to deal with my farts like this on the regular after we get married princess." 

Alex playfully punched him in the abs, "you nasty little shit HAHAH."

"Hey careful if you punch too hard I'm gonna have to air another one out, you don't want that do you."

"NO STOP IT." Alex got up and ran to the bathroom while Ajax ran and caught up to her. I had never seen her this happy before, in any relationship she's ever been in. Damian woke up and laughed at them. 

"Dam, what happened yesterday, I am so fucking hungover the only thing I remember is you pouring wine all over me and dancing." And encountering this devastatingly hot dark man, but I leave that part out. But in reality, that is all I remember, getting drunk, drinks getting wasted as well as ourselves and this blurry image of a very attractive male. 

"We went to look for you and you were passed out on a table, these two girls told us that you were there the whole time and getting drinks from the bar and you passed out."

"Oh wow jeez."

"Yea Vani you can't just leave us like that, we don't even know Miami around very much it's not safe for you to go anywhere by yourself. "

"Yea but I'm okay now so it's fine."

"Yea you're fine." He leaned in an gave me a kiss on the cheek, before he went to the bathroom to take a piss. I decided to go brush my teeth in the sink and take a quick shower by myself. I was going to go on a little walk. I only told Hannah I was going to leave.

"Hannah, I'm going to go take a walk around the resort and maybe a little outside too, I need some fresh air."

"Okay I'll come with you."

"No I wanna go alone, besides you have Toby and oh my god you looked so in love with him when you slept. Did you know you smile when you sleep now?"

"Oh wow do I really?" she blushed. 

"Yea you do I have never ever seen you smile in your sleep you always have your mouth autistically opened and breathing like a hog HAHAHA."

"I KNOW AND HEY SO DO YOU HAHAHA, ANYWAY if you need anything or if anything happens, you better call me BUTCH." It wasn't bitch, it was specifically butch, some stupid joke we had since freshman year. 

"I promise I will, I won't be out for long, if I take more than 2 hours to come back then call me, if I don't pick up call the friggin police HAHA."

"Okay Vanya, now go I love you girl." she said while holding my hand in a romantic jokey way. 

I put on some booty shorts and one of Damian's t-shirts and headed out. There was so much to do here. There was an arcade, a whole indoor waterpark, a few fancy restaurants, and bunch of other things that we had to see in this week. I was looking at this gorgeous fixture with glass beach waves and fish looking like they were jumping in the water. I was staring directly up at it while walking when I heard a thud. I had bumped into someone, and I dropped my phone. 

"Ahh I am so sorry, I was looking at that light thing and I wasn't watching where I was going and-" When I started reaching down for my phone, I saw a dark muscular arm picking up my phone for me before I could. It had a tattoo on it, a beautiful tattoo, of a man and a woman, entwined with each other, the sun and moon filling them up. Then I inhale, and smell a scent that smelled way too familiar. I look back up to thank this gentleman and we lock eyes for a moment. A moment too long. Sooner than I know it my heart is beating I can hear it and my hand is tensing up, my eyes are starting to water. The man looks at me with a smile that slowly fades into a look as if he is in awe. His lips part and his eyebrows slightly raise while he looks down at me and and he dropped his hands to his side. I stand there with my phone clutched to my chest, staring into his dark eyes, for a second too long and I hear myself say, "Terrell?"

A tear drop rolls down my cheek, and I feel a warm body pressing against me, hugging me tightly. I melt into his arms, and drop my phone again. This time neither of us bothers to pick it up. In that second I close my eyes and forget about everything, and I let myself feel in the moment. I hadn't felt this way in years, in five whole years. I thought I would never see him again. And then at this godsent moment, I get to see. I get to see him, I get to feel how good it is to be next to him again. Thank you, I say to myself. Thank you. 

We loosen ourselves from each other, but that doesn't change the sensation. "Hey Vani."

I look up at him with a smile, but with disappointment in my eyes, "Where were you all this time? Why did you hug me? What are you thinking?"

He looks at me with an expression of sadness, "Vani, you have no idea. But that is something I should tell you later. And in all honesty, I don't know what I was thinking, and I don't know what I'm thinking right now. All I can say is, I didn't know what to do."

I didn't know what to do. What did he mean by that. All he should have done was call me, if he really cared, he would have. He would have gone out of his way to meet me again, to at least see me. But he didn't. Once again proves how "I love you's" mean absolutely nothing. Two people cannot be destined to love each other and be with each other romantically for eternity. That's just not how it works.