Dead Heart

The Rest of It

After that day the rest of the trip was great. I hadn't ran into Terrell once after that, so I was glad. He probably finished his trip and headed back to wherever his home was. We did text after that, just about silly things. Like normal friends do. I didn't ask him where he went though, I didn't want him to think I cared. That's so bitchy though, I should ask him. The four days we had left consisted of us going to a whole bunch of restaurants, hookups, movies, beach time, and spas. Oh my god the spas were SO GREAT. 

Everything about Miami was just so perfect. Hookah bars, crazy people, the sleepless city had so much to offer. I want to own a club one day. If I ever get to that point in my career, with that much money, I definitely will. I had a few people walk up to me to ask me if I was Vanya Foxx. That was my model name. I was so happy and flattered that people actually recognized me in person outside of Tallahassee and told me. I happily took pictures with them, strutting my best poses. We were all at dinner when Francesca perked up, "Guys, I have something to tell you."

"What is it girl?" Lexi asked. 

She scratched her head for a bit, "So you know how I said I was asexual?" we nodded, "Well I don't think that's true anymore." We all gasped.

I was smiling, "WOWW oh my god is that why you fell asleep texting someone the other day, and why you suddenly wore an all pink bikini set that looked like the lesbian pride flag?"

"Yeaa.. I may or may not have met a girl in the bar the second day we got here, there's just something about her man. I love her everything, especially her fucking nose."

"Awwwww FRANKIE that is ADORABLE!"

"Thank you guy, so yea I think I'm Lesbian now, or demi-sexual, I'm still trying to figure it out. I just know for sure I'm not straight or asexual." 

We were all so proud of her for coming out to us, and that she finally found someone to bring that out of her. It's never easy to figure out what you like and who you are and I'm so glad she finally is. We all celebrated together in the restaurant, getting drunk as hell. Damian dragged me onto his thigh and started kissing me everywhere.

"Daddy we're out in public we can't be all gross out here," I hiccupped. I turned around to see his face, straddling him. His eyes were bloodshot. "Oh my god Damian, your eyes!" He just thrusted my face against his with slight aggression, it was pretty hot no lie. But he was sick looking. I pulled away, "Dam you're not okay right now, go to the bathroom and drink water babe." He stood up and dragged me to the bathroom. He grunted, then pressed me against the wall. 

My breathing picked up, I didn't know whether to be scared or to be turned on. I chose to be turned on. "You, don't tell me what to do."

I gasped slightly, "I'm telling you that you need to get sober right now," I added a smirk to lighten up the mood.

His force on me increased, then he groaned, and let me go. 

What the hell was that for?

My phone dinged with a notification from Terrell, I ignored it, but Damian eyed my notification. Then he backed away, rubbed his hands on his face. Then walked back to the crowd, like nothing happened. 

I didn't even know what to make of the situation, I'm sure he was just being sexy. I loved it when he got a little aggressive like that. But why was this time different? I tried not to think much of it for the rest of the night. 

After the restaurant, me and Hannah were in the back of the car, just us, when she looked at me and said in a quiet voice, "Vanya."

"What."

"I feel terrible but, I don't like Toby anymore."

"Oh my god Hannah what, literally yesterday you told me you loved him."

"I know but I just don't think he's IT you know. Like he's super cute and nice and charming but just not it. "

"Hmmm well when are you going to break it to him?"

"I still want to be best friends with him because he is a GREAT friend don't get me wrong but I don't know how he'd take it."

"Well Hannah, you're gonna have to tell him one day or another, so you might as well tell him after tomorrow when we all get back home."

"Yea you're right, I just hope he doesn't hate me."

So I guess when people LOOK in love, it doesn't mean they're always in love. Or maybe they are in love but it just won't last. Another reason why I'm never getting married. Love just isn't what it always looks like. 

We packed everything up and went to sleep. Tomorrow we'd all be heading back home, I hated to leave Miami but I was more than ready to go home. We had exams to worry about next, then summer shit. I applied for a summer business internship for a famous club in Tallahassee. There was plenty of huge clubs because that's what Tallahassee was known for. It wasn't too far from my apartment, just two hours away. I really wanted Hannah to come with me but she had a different teaching internship that she had to worry about. She was going to intern at a summer school then for the rest of the year she was student teaching. I was happy that she was going to find a career that she's loved since high school and even more happier that it's teaching. Teachers are needed everywhere so Hannah can just live wherever I live, so it's perfect. 

Hannah was going to tell Toby the day after we got back that she no longer has feelings for him like that. That it doesn't feel right anymore. They didn't sit next to each other the whole ride back, but they did talk to each other like best friends nonetheless. Man I really hope Toby doesn't take it bad. 

The day after we got back came, the day Hannah dreaded. "Hannah you HAVE to tell him today! Or I will."

"But I CAN'T I don't want to loose his friendship!"

"It's either loosing your friendship hypothetically or loosing a chance to find the guy you're ACTUALLY meant to be with or not being able to spend your life as a hot single bitch, whichever one you want hehe."

"Okay FINE he's gonna be here in an hour so you should leave if you want to. Wait no please don't leave I can't do this by myself!"

"Hannah I'm gonna leave okay, you need to do this yourself, this isn't elementary school where you can have your best friend do the breakup for you." I walked out of the door and left her to it. I decided to head to Damian's house and do some studying for the exams coming up the next two weeks. This time I mean actually studying. I walked in and saw Damian on the couch watching Pretty Little Liars. I really did choose the best guy to date. Or maybe he was actually a girl all along. He swung his head around to see me walking towards him. He was butt naked. That's not a problem though.

 He pulled me in, "Hi."

"Hi Damian," I looked down, "Hi Little Damian!"

"He is NOT little!"

"Yea you're right sorry, hey Big Damian!"

We cuddled with his dick out the entire time. I got no studying done. Maybe what happened yesterday was in fact just him being drunk and hot. Yea, it was.