Dead Heart

Fuck Life in the Asshole!

Exams came sooner that expected. My god, the last few days of college really fly by TOO FAST. Next year this time we'll be all done with school completely. Woah. It's scary how life goes by this quickly. I went to visit my sister before my internship and I told her all about everything going on in my life. She has a new boyfriend now apparently, and she's getting ready for college. Oh my god. My little sister going to fucking college. Ain no WAY. She wanted to study law at Boston University so that is where she's going. I am SO proud of her. After studying law she wanted to move to India to try Bollywood acting, which was her real dream. Look at her, making my parents proud AND doing what she wanted to. 

It was almost time for my internship. I was so excited but also so fucking sad that I had to leave my wife and Damian for TWO months. I was going to go and visit them WHENEVER I could. Whenever. I packed all my things, sexy club clothes, sexy business clothes, skin care, makeup, shoes, literally everything. Hannah and Damian helped me load the car so I could reach there by 7 before it got dark. "YOU GUYS, I'm going to miss y'all SOO much!!"

Hannah sniffled, "ME TOO VANI, my wife. Is leaving me."

"I KNOW, but good luck with your summer school internship babe. We're going to need a perfect teacher for my accident babies."

Damian laughed, then picked me up off the floor and and screamed, "WE'LL MISS YOU BABYYYY!!!"

"ME TOO DAMIANNN NOW PUT ME DOWN WHORE."

"We can make those accident babies on purpose some day too you know."

"In your fucking dreams, " I slapped him on the arm playfully then kissed his cheek. He pulled me in for a deep kiss, leaving me panting. 

"Hey, I'm still here!!"

I gave Hannah and Damian one last hug with so many tears in my eyes, jeez Vani it's just two months get it together!

My birthday would have to be spent alone though, since it was in July, but it's okay. A 22nd birthday isn't that important anyway.

I arrived at the Airbnb that had the cutest vibe ever. It was super woodsy and fairytale like with a little hot tub and everything. I brought my camera because I still needed to post on my feed. I needed to keep that insta money coming, literally. I unpacked all my things and I was so restless, even after driving for two hours straight.

I just had to take a few pictures around here. I found a dark brown stud embellished bra top thing and dark brown flare pants that crisscrossed in the tummy area. I threw on some chunky dark green combat boots and jewelry and I found the kitchen that was perfect for hot kitchen island butt pics. I even brought out the bubbles and started playing with the cleaning supplies. Anything for likes!

The sun was setting and  I was still looking for something to do. My internship didn't start til the day after tomorrow so I didn't have to worry too much at all. I set up all the things I needed ready in two days so I wouldn't have to worry later, so I literally have nothing to do. I flipped on the TV and decided to facetime Hannah. 

"Hiiii Hannahhh."

"Hello dear wife, how is the wonderful Airbnb that I selected for you?" she said in a fake sophisticated voice.

"It is in fact, very marvelous. You have good taste my dear wife."

And I gave her a tour of the place and showed her all of the pictures I took. She helped me choose the ones I should post. Then I posted them. Today was a chill day, but I was STILL BORED. The sun was barely out and it probably is the worst idea ever to do this but whatever. If I get killed today I'll just fuck life in the asshole. I threw on a light blue tank top with a darker blue pair of sweat shorts and some flip flops. 

The street that I was staying in was beautiful. So many houses and so many couples and so many single people and so many families. I walked through this mini strip mall place where there was a tattoo parlor. Why not get another tattoo to add to my collection of many. I wanted a moon tattoo, but not just a moon. I wanted a moon with a snake wrapped around it, it reminded me of two people that I always thought about. The snake was Hannah, beautiful in the soul, maybe not to everyone at first sight but to me, she was the best person in the entire world. Then a moon, for that guy I met in the club. I don't know why, but he reminds me of the moon. Only shows up in the dark, when I'm dreaming. Is as bright and beautiful as it is dark and mysterious. I don't remember HIM, but the feeling he gave, was unforgettable. 

The tattoo ended up looking beautiful, it was on my upper thigh, close to my hip bone. I would need a whole new page to explain all of my other tattoos, but we're not going to get into that. I began walking back to the Airbnb, when all I could see was the moon. I stepped out to cross the empty road when suddenly, the moonlight wasn't the only light I saw. From the corner of my eye, a white light grew brighter and brighter by the millisecond, I was thrusted forward, and my eyes grew heavy. I couldn't see the moonlight anymore. All I saw was the darkness. 

Fuck

Life

In

The

Asshole.