𝐌𝐲 𝐋𝐚𝐝𝐲 | 𝐤𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐚𝐭𝐨 𝐚𝐲𝐚𝐭𝐨 ✓

19

2nd POV

Home.

What's even a home to you? what does it mean? why is it so important? is it a place? a person?

You don't know. you never knew what home was like. people may say Inazuma since you were born there, but no. that's completely different because it didn't felt like home.

Home is where you feel safe with someone or being with someone you love. that's home.

"Do you ever wish to go back?"

Kazuha gave you an apple to which you accepted gratefully, "no, even how much i spend most of my life there, i wish to never go back, living there."

"Why?"

"Because i don't belong there anymore. my dark past is still chaining me down so to get rid of it, i don't come back," he answered solemnly. you could only leave your question there as you knew what he was talking about. though it pained you to lose him too, it affected Kazuha even more. you couldn't imagine how he felt when he witnessed his death right then and there.

"Do you wish to go back?"

Do you? you do wish to go back, you wish to see your friends again, and you wish to see him again.

"I do," you said while holding the untouched apple.

No matter how much the pain you felt back there, you still wish to go back. you weren't like Kazuha who felt chained down when he goes there, but rather you felt trap.

Trap in your clan, trap in this life where you can't feel home. not even knowing what's home.

"What's stopping you?" Kazuha asked once more as he gazed outside. it had stopped raining few minutes ago and the clear night sky is finally peeking out of the gray clouds.

"He's stopping me."

He as in the Kamisato lord. the one who held her heart in the palm of his hand. the one who knows how to make her feel like her whole world can grow.

Kazuha knew who she was talking about. he knew the feelings she possessed and he knew the reason why he's the reason. twiddling with the small leaf from the ground, "letting the darkness hold onto you will keep you forever."

Before you could say something back, Kazuha continued, "even if it's him, even if he's the darkness."

"But i don't know what to do, Kazuha," you quietly spoke.

"Even if it's light or darkness, don't let it go because it's the only thing keeping you here. no matter how good or evil it is to you, i believe it's best to keep it close to you."

You knew what he was talking about. even if he rejected you, even if your clan rejected you, you should continue to stay because if you leave, you're showing weakness. you're proving their point and taking the blame all to yourself.

"Should i go back?" you hesitatingly asked as you side glanced his profile who was still looking outside.

"That decision is yours to make, but whatever decision you make, i won't stop you. i will continue on being here and if i'm not, i'll wait again and again."

Few hours had passed by and you are now walking slowly towards the familiar wine building. Kazuha had helped guide you to the right path to the familiar wine building. you soon breathed in and out due to being afraid the reactions you will get, but you still muster up to walk towards the front door.

After saying goodbye to Kazuha as he needed to continue his wandering journey, he promised you he will visit you back in Inazuma just for you, even the bad memories he carries there.

"I'll wait for you, no matter how long it takes."

Those were his last words before he left, and another thing he gave you was a soft peck on the forehead, telling you we will meet again.

Sighing, you opened the door only to immediately feel a large figure embracing yours in a tight manner. your chin rested upon his shoulder as he tightened his arms around your waist.

"Never run off again, got it?" Diluc said closely to your ear.

Closing your eyes, you nodded against his hold and wrapped your arms around his slight shaken figure, "i'm sorry."

Leaning back, he shook his head, "please no, i was too harsh on you and you were right, i kept shutting you out even when you try to help me, so i would like to apologize."

Smiling a bit, "i forgive you, sir Diluc."

Clearing his throat and looking to the side, "please, just call me Diluc. sir is a bit too formal between us."

Then your smile widened, "yes, Diluc."

The name coming off of your mouth made his ears burned up a bit, "w-well since that's out of the way, i must get back to my office. if you need anything, you know where i'll be."

Nodding in understanding, you watched him go back to his office, but before he could, you shouted, "please don't work too hard!"

Not replying, you only got a nod back and he continued his path to his private office.

Once he was out of your sight, your smile slowly faded. casting your gaze down to your feet, you had realized something when you had walked back earlier.

The talk you had with Venti, the talk you had with Kazuha, and the rejection talk you had with the brothers. they all made you register something in your mind and heart.

You wanted this ever since you left. it was all clear now as you grasp the true feelings within you.

Your home.

He was your home. his smile, his lavender eyes, his soft silky pale blue locks, and his kind hearted soul. the only thing you want is to go back home, where he is.

Kamisato Ayato is and will forever be your home.

a/n: okay last chapter for the day 👩🏻‍💻 i really really really enjoyed writing this one so i hope you enjoyed it as well ☺️ see you next chapter my dear readers 💕

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4/22/22