We Found Us

Chapter 34

Meera's POV:

I'm not thinking anything straight. I'm so hurt after even being accepted by everyone but Pari. She is the main person, the most important one to Karan, and now she's not here because of me. I will never able to forgive myself.

I eat dinner and took my meds and am laying down quietly. I didn't speak a word to anyone. Bharti ma tried her best to change my mood. But nothing affected me. I am just blank.

I heard the bell ring and the main door open. I looked up at the wall clock it's 9:35. I knew Karan has come, but I didn't move an inch. I kept laying down silently.

Then after few minutes the room door opened. My back is towards the door so I couldn't see him. I felt him enter in. He came and stood behind me.

He sat at the edge and slowly hugged me from the back. He kissed the side of my hair, nuzzling into my neck he took deep breaths.

I wiggled a bit, then suddenly I could get a unusual smell from him. It's not his fragrance.

I truned slowly and looked at him. He smiled slightly and kissed my forehead and my cheek.

I touched his shirt, and pulled him closer. He looked at me wiredly, I smelt his shirt kneely

"What's wrong wifey?" He asked puzzled.

I moved him up and sat straight. I gave him a lightly hopeful look.

"You met Pari?" I asked him curiously.

"How did you know?" He asked me shockingly.

I got her powder fragrance, that means you met her? How is she? Did she speak to you?
What did she say? Is is happy there? Will she come back?
I shooted questions at him holding his collar.

He took my hands off his collar and stood up looking elsewhere. I too stood up in anxiety.

"It's better we not talk about it".
He said and truned to go.

"Karan, what do you mean?"
I asked him stopping his way.

"Meera, cut it here!".
He said but this time in pain.

He took his clothes and went into the bathroom. I came back and lay down in pain. The pain in his eyes I can't bare to see. He's broken into two halfs.

He came out getting fresh after sometime. I truned and looked at his face, it's so pale and lifeless. Obviously it's his daughter. He's a father. And I'm come in the middle of them. I never wanted this.

I got up and and went to him. He is standing infont of the mirror. I hugged him from the back.

"Shall I serve you dinner?"
I asked softly.

"No you rest, Bharti ma is there".
He said lamely.

He moved away from me and left the room.

Now I'm more sad I don't know what to do. I'll die in guilt.
Seeing him like this is not possible by me.

I quietly went and sat back on the bed. I sat blankly not feeling any emotion at all. Soon he came back inside, he went to the bathroom came out and lay down turning the other way and covering himself.
He didn't speak a word to me.
I too silently lay down. Sleep took over me after sometime.

Deep in sleep, I heard Karan's phone ringing. I trossed the other side and tapped him.

"Karan pick up your phone". I told shaking him.

When he woke up, the phone stopped ringing. He sat up straight rubbing his eyes. I looked up at the wall clock it's 2:40 am.

"Who called at this time?"
I asked him in a groggy voice.