Teasing Miss Bullock (TeacherxStudent/gxg)

| Chapter 52: It's almost heart attack

Sandra's POV

I woke up in one of the cubicle of the hospital, my mind immediately point out to Novel "Where's Novel?! How is she?!" "Jeez woman! You scared me!!" Tally jump out

She sigh as I look at the ceiling trying to steady my breathing "you got a call from your assistant and I told her what happened, she's on her way" Cystal say shrugging and I notice her face is tired

"How long I pass out?" I ask with a weak voice to my chagrin facing Crystal who I think is still mad toward me "three hours ago, don't worry, Novel is okay now" she answer as I sigh in relief

"y-you know what happened to the both of us is so sudden right?" my voice crack as the pain in my chest appear again

"Y-Yeah, and it's unintentional...but really... Sandra" she sigh heavily then face me now "if things like this occur... communication is the key, now it's now your problem how to make up with Novel, especially when she finally finish her motive to you, you ask her to- and you know it's tiring"

ouch! Why does it hurt? It's painful

"Novel keep chasing and proving herself towards you within those months you're together, you know...I'm even surprise she lasted that one" she added while putting the water on the table stand

"If I were her I'll never be an idiot to chase a person who don't feel the same way toward me" she sigh as she poured out the words out of ambivalence, I look away feeling the pain contraction in my heart

But I feel the same, that's why this is so painful and scary for me

Tears roll down my cheek "I won't let her go though" I say gulping, the green curtain open as Sarah walk in with a worry face

She sit beside me as Crystal patted Sarah's shoulder and smile in informal greeting that receprocated by the blond

"hey...are you okay?" she ask as I whip my tears that spill, Sarah offer me a hug which I can't refuse to, and that when I cry, cry till I have no tears to spill "I-it h-hurt so much" I sob as she rub my back sushing me "Shhh...I know...just let it out sis" she comfort that made me cry even more

"I hate myself, I should not p-push her away, I sh-should not be selfish...I-I should not let that fucking bitch ruin us" I rant between muffled sob on her chest as she just sushing me

"It's already happened, sandra...it's not too late" she said as I sniffle
After that all break down I just decided thay I can't stand letting Novel go, especially knowing now that I love that lady, I love Novel... and I know this is metaphor but-

She's like a drug I can't stop to be addicted to, every time we had is a bliss and a thrill moment, it's not always rainbow and butterfly but I know she's the one I long to have

The person I need since I realize how dark is this world could become, she's my torch of light, she's the oxygen I want to breath, she's the intoxicating smell of melon which I can't stop to smell, she's my guard where only feel security and comfort without her telling me she does protect me, she's my home I can feel warm, yet I push her away

and to sum up all worse... she's now here in the hospital as I cry for her to fight harder, from now on I'll start fighting to win her back...

can I? someday... win her back?

Will she? Trust me... In a long run of this roller-coaster journey of our unlabeled relationship?

It is unknown, unexplained attraction, and for all I know I never felt this thing ever since, it's frightening... In pretense in my own self for denying my growing admiration for that girl, yet It revel... And truth stunned the shit out of me that LOVE is unstoppable