*Jades POV*
It's been 2 days since the funeral. 2 days since the elevator. 2 days since he kissed me goodnight thinking I was asleep. And 2 days of being insufferably alone.
It's new years eve, and I've somehow managed to hurt every single person I love. I haven't heard from Julian since Christmas Eve, and he sure as hell isn't gonna reach out after Wednesday. Everywhere I look I see him. Shopping; him smiling half naked on every magazine cover. Watching TV; every news section reporting on him. YouTube; interviews on my suggested, no matter how many times I refresh. Music; the song he wrote, my song, blasting through every radio and every speaker. Julian Barley performing on New Year's eve, Julian Barley already working on next album, Julian Barley to lead in hollywood's biggest movie.
The agony.
I see his face every day, yet it feels like decades since I've actually seen him.
I can't focus, I can't smile, I cant laugh, I can't relax, and I can't sleep. I can't do anything with this crater that has formed in my heart, and I have no one to blame but myself. I wish I could say it will get better but I have never felt like this, even after Elijah left me.
On the days I do happen to fall asleep, my dreams are filled with his face and his voice. I'll be transported to a fantasy land where we met at a cafe, or were highschool sweethearts, or had mutual friends. A land where we live happily ever after and grow old together. A place where our love grows more and more everyday. A dream where we have a huge wedding with our families and friends and start our life together. A fantasy where we tell our kids our story and they gag and say "ew, yuck!" A place where no matter how rich or poor we are, sick or healthy, tired or awake, sad or overjoyed-- we stay together. A place where I'm good, where my father didn't fuck my life up and a place where I don't blame my mistakes on him. A place where Julian can forgive me and we can move forward. A place where I'm not alone.
And then I wake up.
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I unwrap the box of tissues I bought from the store and throw it on the couch, hopping over the arm of it and landing on a cushions. I snuggle under my blanket just as I hear a knock on the door.
I look up at the clock and see that it's 10:00. I push myself out of the couch and trudge towards the door, not bothering to check the peephole.
Once I successfully unlock the door, I swing it open and stand face-to-face with Elijah, holding a dark green gift, tied with a black velvet bow. "Elijah? What are you doing here? It's late." He frowns and pushes past me, walking into the living room and setting the gift down on my dirty coffee table.
"I needed to give you this." He has a serious expression on his face so, with concern flooding my thoughts and presumably my facial expression, I sit across from him in my favorite black chair and look at him.
"What's wrong? You didn't need to get me anything-"
"It's from Julian." He cuts me off.
what the hell?
My mouth falls open and my head juts backwards, I was not expecting that. "What the hell do you mean? He gave this to you? Why?"
He shakes his head, "no, no. He gave this to me when I slept over your house months ago. He got upset and told me to give it to you but I was petty and kept it. I never opened it, it's been sitting in my suitcase all this time. I'm leaving soon, so I think it's best you have it. It's a bit overdue." He nods towards it, pushing it towards me. I sit there stunned, my eyes flickering between him and this pandora's box in front of me. "Open it." He softly says, a small smile brimming his lips. I hesitantly reach over the table and pick it up, dropping it in my lap. I prepare for tears and silently praise myself for the tissues I bought.
I untie the bow, letting it fall to the floor and continue to rip the metallic wrapping paper, also letting it fall to the floor. Once all the wrapping paper has been ripped, I look at the black box in my hands and pause a moment before opening it. I don't know if I can do this.
Lifting the top off of the box, I'm met with a glass structure. Fully pulling it out of the box, I realize what it is. There's a rectangle, connected to a thin piece of glass with a picture of me and Julian training, underneath the picture is Spotify-styled, with a line and white indented writing that reads, Jadey. Underneath the writing has another indentation, My Big, Bad Protector.
I cover my mouth and scrunch my eyebrows, using all my strength to hold in the tears threatening my eyes.
"Are you okay?" I shake my head and sniffle, looking up at Elijah as a tear drips down my face.
"I will be." He purses his lips, nodding.
"I should get going." He stands and heads towards the door, me following behind.
"Thank you, Elijah. For everything." He smiles, a sad one.
"This is it, huh?" I don't answer, just look down at the floor.
"When are you leaving?" I look up at him, rubbing my eyes.
"Tomorrow morning." A lopsided smile takes over his lips as he shrugs.
"Oh, Eli." I crash into his arms, squeezing him with all my might.
"Can't. Really. Breathe." I giggle and let go a little as he also puts his arms around me.
"I'm gonna miss you."
"We had a good run." I grin through my tears and look up at him.
"Why are you only talking in super-dramatic-action-movie quotes?" He snorts and rubs my back. "I'll never forget you Elijah, thank you." He slowly let's go of me before kissing the top of my head. I unlock the door and he steps out, turning to face me.
"I'm sorry, Jade."
"Sorry for what?" He stares at me, and then turns and walks down the hall.
"What the hell?" I mutter under my breath, closing the door, leaning against the back of it as my mind immediately begins to race.
Is he sorry for leaving me last year? Sorry for the other night? The present?
No, I know that face.
He's guilty, he's guilty about a kill.
"Julian!" I run to the living room, ignoring the gift and grab the remote to the TV. Thankfully, every channel is in times square, some have Julians face plastered over the screen as he prepares to sing when the ball drops.
I need to get down there before Elijah does.
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The Assassins Kill
Romance"You make me feel...you make me feel. I want you to stop...i need you to stop." Bodyguard by day, assassin by night- Jade Robinson is assigned to kill rockstar Julian Barely. Acting as his bodyguard, tension grows within their relationship. With Chr...
