Mated by the Moon (SOPE X Reader)

Chapter 15

Y/N POV:

I paced back and forth across the office in the clinic, furious as what had just taken place with Hoseok.  Yes.  I may be his mate, but I don't know whom he thought he was to be able to talk to me like that.  Just because I am an omega and he is an alpha, it means I am supposed to let people walk all over me?  I don't fucking think so.  That is not me and it's never going to be me.  If he thinks it is then I shouldn't even be here.  He should have left me with the Makani pack.

Flopping down in my desk chair, I dropped my head back, rubbing my hands over my face in frustration.  I knew this situation was challenging for him, but I wished that he would at least try to take into account how I felt about it all, how I was handling everything.  I had spent the last two years with a man I had grown to love, one who I knew loved me just as much.  To suddenly be ripped away from that and to lose my mate?  It was something I wasn't prepared for, something I had not expected to happen.

"Ugh!  I hate stupid arrogant alphas." 

"Y/N?  Are you okay?"  I opened my eyes to see Jimin standing in front of me, a concerned look on his face.  "I know that sounds like a stupid question, but are you?"

Shrugging my shoulders, I tried to reassure my worried friend.  "No.  Not really.  I'm... I'm trying to get used to the idea of being here, of being with them, but I can't."  I could feel the tears sting my eyes and I was helpless to stop them from sliding down my cheeks.  "I... I miss Charon, the rest of my pack.  This pack?  It doesn't feel like home to me."

Jimin hurried over to my side and I could sense from the pheromones coming from him that he was trying to soothe me.  "Oh sweetie.  I know."  Jimin tugged my hands then pulled me to my feet, wrapping me in a tight hug.  "I can't say I know how you're feeling, but I can understand how awful it is to be taken away from the people who care about you, the people who love you."

The soft tone of Jimin's voice was enough to break down the last of my barriers and I turned my face to his chest, letting the sobs I had been holding in finally break free.  I gripped his shirt in my hand, letting out every single one of my frustrations, the pain I was feeling.  Jimin's arms tightened around me, holding me close and I was extremely grateful to have met someone like him, someone who had accepted me so easily.  After a moment, I pulled back, a little embarrassed.  "Um... sorry about that."

Jimin held me tightly with one arm and reached behind me to grab a tissue off the desk.  He wiped the tears from my face then brushed my hair back.  "No.  Don't ever apologize for needing me like this.  You're my friend and I want to help you."  Jimin's eyes turned sad.  "I know you want to go back, but I want... I want you to stay here."

A twinge of guilt cut through me, knowing that my feelings about the whole situation not only affected me, but him as well.  "Yes.  There is a part of me that wishes I could go back, but there's a bigger part of me that knows deep down where exactly I am supposed to be, who I'm supposed to be with.  It's frustrating for me since I feel like my choices were taken away from me, that decisions were made for me."

"It's the downside to being an omega."  Jimin's words were matter of fact and, even though I knew he was right, I hated it.  I hated that me being an omega determined the amount of respect I would get.  When I was on the Makani land, I had heard of an omega that, even though she didn't want him, was forced to be with her mate.  She didn't get the choice to reject him and was completely miserable in her life.  When Namjoon had given me the choice to return home with my brother, I had been surprised, knowing that omegas usually didn't get that kind of choice.

"Yeah I know."  Pulling back from his arms, I pecked his cheek, a grateful smile on my face.  "You have no idea how much I appreciate you.  If... if it wasn't for you, I don't know if I would be able to do this."