Time: 1:48pm
I feel like whenever I do anything, someone's always going to compare me to someone. That's fine, it happens. But when you're constantly compared to your cousins and your brother it hurts so much worse. "Oh that's 'cool' anyways *cousin's name* drew this and it's SO amazing! You should be able to get to that point one day!" Like fk you, that person draws realistic art. I DON'T DO THAT. It's like comparing apples to oranges. They're both fruits but they aren't the same thing. Why can't they leave me alone? I'm already insecure enough about literally everything I do. Art? Oh but everyone in my class is better then me. Music? Oh but I can't make any good tunes. or actually good lyrics. Video games? Even those. I literally can't finish a single one without getting agitated and/or bored halfway through. WRITING? That's not as bad, but I constantly remind myself I'm not actually that good and there's so many better things to read then my work. On that, reading? Yeah that too. Sure, I'm dyslexic, but that just puts a reason to why I should stop. I love it, but most people I know either hate reading, or can read an entire 500 page book in a week. It takes me a year to read a 200 page book. Like what am I supposed to do? just let them tell me I could do better and that all of my cousins are better then me in one way or another? At the thing I'm actually good at? And sure, maybe this is the depression talking, but sometimes I feel like I should just stop what I'm passionate about. Because I'm not worth anyone's time.
Time: 1:57pm
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Vent Book Because Depression
Non-FictionThis is a vent book so trigger warnings aren't in the chapters and I don't really want to read them again, so here, Tw: mentions of self harm, suicidal thoughts, Eating disorders / mental health issues and panic attacks. They aren't in ever chapter...
