TIme: 11:02 am
I can't tell if I'm the problem or society is. I can't tell anyone how I really feel because if I do it might seem like I'm a terrible person, but idk if that's because of how I am or how society shuns people from ever thinking of themselves before others. Most of my thoughts about others go along the lines of either "This person hates me", " They never let me speak", "They always only care about ... and never me", "I don't wanna be around ... Right now" etc. But there's always a valid reason. Yet if I say that, I'm gonna be called selfish or jealous. I'm not, I was jsut never given enough attention.
Time: 11:07 am
Time: 2:03 pm
Everyone keeps talking about my cousin going back to our home country over the next holidays, and I wouldn't have a problem wih it if she wasn't one of my best friends and my birthday wasn't during them. I sound selfish, but it's not fair that everyone always does things and purposefully invite me when they know I can't make it, or they straight up make plans on a day that's special to me that I want them there for so there's an excuse for them to not go. Idc how selfish I'm told I am, my aunt is more. I'm allowed to be mad at her she's 80% of my childhood trauma.
Time: 2:07 pm
...God I sound like an asshole in this sorry
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Vent Book Because Depression
Non-FictionThis is a vent book so trigger warnings aren't in the chapters and I don't really want to read them again, so here, Tw: mentions of self harm, suicidal thoughts, Eating disorders / mental health issues and panic attacks. They aren't in ever chapter...
