The Last

Life Summary?

Everything just went downhill when I lost my best friend. She meant everything to me, maybe too much. Then I lost her because I went too far and then I blamed her for my own actions. There is literally nothing to make things right between us. It has already been two years since that. She already moved on and found herself a new best friend. You can say her new best friend is a better version of myself. He is much more handsome and just more positive than I ever was. All I did was bring the mood down and the only times she enjoyed me was when I was acting all goofy, even though I am nothing like that at all. I use humor to cope with everything that has ever happened to me. I also held her back a lot. I have never seen her this happy before. Maybe it was for the better, even if it did lead me to one of my lowest points in life.

A few years back, I was bullied a lot as well. Maybe because I was the weakest guy in my class. Maybe because I was the ugliest or just too quiet? Maybe it's all of that and more. I could never stand those guys, thinking they were better than me just because they got with the most girls in school while I never touched the only one who stuck with me. Their words shouldn't have affected me that much, so why did it stick with me?

Although I never had many people with me, it felt like everything changed overnight. We got back and it's like everyone suddenly liked me. They were new faces sure, but I still expected the same treatment as before. You would think it's a good thing right? New friends, new place, fresh start to life. But no. I get too paranoid with things like this. I can't handle this new change. They are all lying, right? There is no way I'm being complimented for the same things I used to be bullied for. Right? It doesn't make sense. Something is wrong or something is going to go wrong soon.