Our secret

Jas drama

I woke up in my bed around noon. I got up and got dressed. I took a shower last night so I didn't need one today. I went to the bathroom. Still bleeding. Not as bad as the day the miscarriage happened but still bleeding. I made my way to the kitchen making myself a cup of coffee.

"hello"
"Hi"

Jas walked into the kitchen cutting Damien off and he stopped and looked at me tightening his jaw. I gave him a im sorry look as I took a sip of my coffee.

"I'm mad at you"

Jas's voice brought me back to attention and reality.

"Why what did I do?"

Damien walked right in front of me reaching above my head and grabbing a mug. Ohh he thinks he's fucking funny.

"Sorry excuse me"

Jas just stared and watched.

"Hi jas"

Jas of course immediately blushed.

"HI DAMIEN"

Damien looked at her and raised his eyebrow and all I could do was smother my laugh by drinking my coffee.

"Hey addi"

I looked up from my coffee to see Travis walking in and dapping Damien up. I looked at Travis then to jas then back to Travis and jas.

"Soooo you and jas?"

Damien's voice cut the awkward silence.

"YEAH ISNT THAT GREAT!!"

Jas was one of those loud girls that wasn't for everyone. Damien absolutely hated her. Like I mean he hated her with a burning fucking rage.

"Your not mad are you?"

I looked at jas with a questionable look.

"why the hell would I be mad exactly?"
"Because you guys used to talk"

Damien shot me a what the hell is she talking about look and Travis just looked confused. I started busting into laughter and jas looked at me like what the fuck are you ok.

"Jas I said hello to him because he's Damien's friend and he offered me a drink because me and Damien will eventually be siblings that doesn't mean we was talking because we had manners with each other at one party one night."

Jas instantly reddened.

"So again why exactly are you mad at me"

I havint talked to jas since she called me about the zack thing. I had been busy with Damien and our parents she had apparently been busy with Travis. So we have not talked since then and we havint even see each other since the first party of summer break.

"Because you didn't tell me about you and Zack"

I looked at her and Damien looked like he was going to blow up and Travis looked like he wanted to bitch slap her.

"BABE!!"

Travis yelled at jas as if he was surprised she had just said that. My mom walked in and stood behind them with sadness filling her face looking at me with tears in her eyes. Great now my emotional mother was going to start crying again. I put my coffee down and tightened my jaw. I took a deep sigh and got ready.

"What"
"You and Zack hooking up your not a virgin anymore that's fucking exciting addi"

Now see I was pissed because I told her what happened so the fact she was standing in front of me saying that made me livid. In a way she was pretty much calling me a liar about the whole situation. She was for real acting like that phone call between me and her never fucking happened.

"Jas I told you what happened with me and Zack"
"Yeah but are you sure or do you just not want your mom to know you got drunk and hooked up with him. I mean that's what liv is saying and she was at the party so I just assumed"

I looked at her and opened my mouth to talk but Damien beat me to it.

{oh great. Damien and me were opposites. I never stood up for myself and I was always silent when it actually mattered. Damien however would hurt anyone's feeling with absolute minimal words. He didn't give a fuck about anything. Especially about hurting someone's feeling. Especially someone he didn't even like.}

"You are really something else jas. Your pissed off because she hasn't made her life revolve around you.
You are the most insecure annoying fucking cunt I have ever met in my fucking life. You have this idea that if ads doesn't tell you everything the second it happens that she's lying. Because god forbid she has a life outside of you and this toxic friendship with you. You are a horrible friend to her jas. All you care about is yourself and the next dick you can ride. I told her months ago what kind of hoe you are and she defended you. Only for you to show up frappes all over a guy you thought she liked. Which by the way isn't the case. If your so sure she's lying...

{here it comes}

WHY DONT YOU GO ASK THE MULTIPLE GIRLS THAT HE DID RAPE OR YOUR FUCKING BOYFRIEND SINCE HE WAS AT THE PARTY OR ME BECAUSE I PULLED HIM OFF OF HER WHEN HE WAS STRANGLING HER"

my mom smiled and jas had tears in her eyes as she stared at Damien and Travis looked fucking uncomfortable. I grabbed my bag and my keys and started walking out.

"Wh-where are you going addi"

Jas's voice came out in cracks as she talked between the tears.

"My therapist appointment got to keep up my image of lying jas"

I walked out slamming the door and getting into my car heading to my therapist appointment. I had a lot to say today.

"So how was your week?"

My therapists voice was calm as he looked at me.

"Horrible"
"What's been going on Adalyn?"

I looked at him and sighed.

"Where do I start?"
"Wherever you want just cover everything you would like to talk about and get off of your chest"

I gave a really deep sigh and I shifted in my seat looking at him.

"Is my mom going to find out what we talk about"
"No not unless you tell me it's okay to talk to her about our sessions. No one will ever know what we talk about unless I fear for your safety and well being then I will have to report it but I don't think that's the case here is it"

I shook my head no.

"Well start whenever you are ready"

I sighed and took a deep breath.

"okay well I lost my virginity a while ago and I've been having regular sex with the guy. We're safe and careful but we apparently are not careful enough. Anyway I woke up covered in blood a while ago. My mom took me to the hospital and it turns out I had a miscarriage. I didn't even know I was pregnant my mom doesn't know and I plan to keep it that way. Anyway Jas had the audacity to say I was lying about the zack thing even though I already told her what happened she doesn't believe me and said I was lying and I had sex with him and just didn't want my mom to know. My dad still refuses to see me and he's getting worse and worse. Damien goes off to college soon and aside from my boyfriend he's literally the only other person I feel like I can talk to without being judged."

I had to lie about having a boyfriend no way in hell could anyone find out about me and Damien.

"That's a lot to unpack Adalyn"
"I know"

My therapist looked at me and shook his head getting ready to talk.

{here we go. This is going to be a long session.}