Our secret

Trauma

"Well what's wrong and where's dame?"

My mom and Todd just looked at me but didn't say anything. Damien walked out of the bathroom and had tears streaming down his face. It scared me. I've known Damien for years before my mom and his dad started dating and not once have I seen him cry. Not even during a game when his collarbone got busted.

"Damien what's wrong" my voice came out cracky. I wanted to cry seeing him like this.

"I didn't no ads. I swear to god. I didn't no. I would never of left you alone with him if I knew. I wouldn't of introduced you guys three years ago if I knew oh my god I'm so sorry"

He had tears running down his face begging me for forgiveness for something that was out of his control.

"Dame what happened wasn't your fault you can't blame yourself for what he did to me or any of those other girls. I don't blame you. I don't blame any girl that was before me and not reporting him. Your not to blame."

Damien didn't say anything else he just ran up the stairs and slammed his door. I jumped when the door slammed shut "Damien"

My mom looked at me and gave a apologetic smile.

"Just give him time honey how was therapy"
"He put me on meds and wants to see me every Monday and Thursday. I have to go pick up the meds  in a hour I'm supposed to start them tonight."
"What meds"

I shrugged my shoulders and walked over grabbing a drink.

"I can't pronounce the names but they are for anxiety, depression, some thing that I guess is ganna help with the nightmares and birth control"

My mom and Todd's face shot up and I took a drink of my pop.

"Why birth control are you having sex"
"No I'm still a virgin mom"
"Then why birth control"

{no way in hell was I telling either of them I was having sex.}

I shrugged my shoulders again and looked at her.

"he said it will help my period with the cramps and getting me on track because I'm still all wonky"

My mom smiled at me and sighed in a reassuring way.

"Imma go see if he's ok"

I walked away and knocked on Damien's door.

"Damien are you ok"

I could hear him in his room but he didn't say anything.

"Okay well if you want to talk we can. look I'm sorry you feel like this is all your fault but it isn't. I'm the one who went up to the room with him if anything it's my fault"

I started walking away when Damien opened his door.

"Don't ever blame yourself for what he did to you"

I turned around and looked at Damien. His face was red and it broke my heart seeing him like this.

"Then why are you blaming yourself"
"Touché ads"

Damien looked at me and smiled at me. Not his regular huge smile. It was more of a small sad smile.

"they want to talk to us"
"Well let's go get it over with"

Damien and me just stared at each other before we finally walked downstairs and sat at the table.

"I'm going away for a while I'm not honestly sure when i will be back"

Damien and me looked at his dad.

"Dad why"
"I'm going to rehab kids"

I looked at Damien and he didn't say anything or move. I looked at Todd.