Sinematic(Devin Sola)

4

Some may say I had fallen for my best friend over these past two years. Others may say its just a best friend instinct. And others may say I'm insane. But I say, I say that my best friend is leaving for the longest amount of time he's ever left and it kills me.

"I don't want you to leave." I whisper looking back and forth between his Carmel colored eyes.

"You say that every time, silly." He says with a sad smile.

"And I mean it every time." I frown a bit.

"It's only 2 months." He says with a small smile.

"But you, Ange, Frank, Joshua, and TJ, are all leaving, my only friends." I pout.

"Yes because we're in a band together." He chuckles.

"Shut the fuck up you ass." He laughs lightly. "You'll call everyday right?" I ask him hugging him tightly.

"I'll call you every moment I can." He says snaking his small tattooed arms around me. I feel like the waterworks might be coming soon.

"It's going to be so boring again, not having you here with me, not having you anywhere around. Not having any of you guys around me." I can honestly say I loathe every time they leave. It makes me feel so lonely. I have no friends besides them and when they leave I can't do anything for myself. Chris frowns a bit as he stare into each other's eyes.

"What?" I ask.

"What are you thinking about?" He asks me.

"It's nothing, it's just me thinking stupid things." I shrug a bit.

"Alexis, tell me." He says sternly. I sigh a bit and break eye contact.

"It's just, I'm nothing when you guys are gone. I just sit around doing nothing, I'm a lonely person. I didn't have anyone till you came into my life. I hate that you guys always get to live your dreams and then I'm stuck at home. I can't do anything when you guys aren't here. I want to live my dreams like yours but I can't because I'm a painter and my parents hate me." I sigh, tears rising into my eyes.

"Oh Alex," He says engulfing me in another hug. "you can live your dreams. You can do whatever you want, you just have to take a leap. We did and we're going on a bunch of tours and have an EP out." He says joy in his voice. "You may be lonely without us but you are always something even when we are gone. You're an amazing person, you're my bestfriend and if you weren't in my life I don't know what I would do." He says sounding a tad sad.

"You're such a liar Chris, but I love you." I sigh burrowing my face in his neck.

"How about we have a sleepover tonight and then be our fatty ass selves and we can have a mini party." He says causing me to smile a bit.

"Just us or all the guys?" I ask.

"Just us." He says.

"It sounds fantastic."I say with a smile.

"Let us go to your house to get food and your clothing!" Chris shouts as our hug ends causing me to laugh.

See why I've fallen for him?

***

"Chris." I whisper.

"Yes?" He asks.

"I'm cold." I whisper.

"Do you want another blanket?" He asks.

"No."I reply.

"Cuddles?" He asks.

"Yes." He chuckles at me and scoots over to me wrapping his arms around me.

I cuddle up against him closing my eyes a bit. I feel like I'm taking advantage of him because he doesn't know how I really feel. He doesn't know this makes me want him even more. I feel a pair of lips press against my head. I look up confused and have lips immediately pressed to mine. My eyes widen in confusion.

"Sorry, fuck I'm sorry." Chris says sitting up quickly causing me to panic.

"W-What why why'd you what." I say.

"I shouldn't have done that. I was just- my feelings got ahold of me." He says stuttering a bunch.

"What feelings?" I whisper.

"Nothing." He whispers.

"Please tell me." I reply.

"I've liked you since we met." He whispers.

"Really?" I ask crawling over to him.

"Yeah." He scratches his neck.

"Well, I've liked you too." I whisper.

"Seriously?" He asks looking over at me.

"Why do you think I cry every time you leave? Or always want to cuddle?" I ask rhetorically.

"I don't know." He shrugs causing me to laugh a little bit.

"So what now?" I ask.

"Can I kiss you?" He asks me.

"You don't have to ask." I whisper.

In less than a heart beat his lips press against mine. They slide against mine easily, even with his lip rings in. He turns on the bed so the kiss is more comfortable.

***

"Chris?" I ask for the millionth time this night.

"Yeah?" He asks in reply.

"Why did you never tell me you liked me?" I ask as we lay outside cuddled up next to each other watching the stars.

"I never told you because I didn't think you'd like me in that way. You always called me your best friend, I never thought you'd like someone like me." He says.

I look at him with a frown.

"Someone like you? Chris you're literally perfect." I reply to him. He laugh sarcastically.

"No I'm not, I'm weird." He says.

"I like weird." I reply moving my eyes away from his face.

"You're crazy then." He says causing me to make a weird noise.

He chuckles a bit at that.

"I don't want you to leave." I sigh a bit.

"I wish you could come with." He says making me sigh again.

"I wish I could too. But my parents would never go for it. I wouldn't be able to go until school is over."

"I know." He says quietly making me sad.

I nuzzle my face into his neck and close my eyes.