Sinematic(Devin Sola)

21

"What the hell happened to you?" Asher screams again, jumping on my bed sending Devin and I into the air a little bit. I squeal at the feeling of flying, feeling like I might fall of the bed.

"Asher!" I yell out at him, in a scolding manner.

"What?" He asks nonchlantly, as Devin and I settle ourselves back on the bed.

"You could have just killed us." I say to him.

"I don't care, you're back and I want to know what the fuck happened to you." He says causing me to sigh.

"Do you not see that I alreaedy have company?" I ask him causing him to look away from me to look at Devin, then back at me.

"Who's this? New boy toy?" He grins slightly at me.

I glare at him and kick him a bit.

"This is Devin, Devin this is Asher." I say introducing the two.

"I'm her best friend, and you're not Chris, I'm so confused." Ash says falling back on my bed as Devin and I watch him.

"Now's not the best time, Ash." I say to him.

"I don't care, you left for months with barely any explination. I want an explination." He frowns at me.

"Fine," I start to tell him what has happened these past months.

"I'm sorry baby girl, I wish I could've been there for you." He says as I finish, engulfing me into a big hug.

"It's okay." I say lightly, hugging him back tightly.

I sit myself back down beside Devin on the bed, I had only moved to hug him easier.

"So," Ash drags out, "What are you two?" He asks me.

I look over at Devin to have his eyes meet mine. Without looking away I lightly reply with an i'm not sure, and then look away.

"Friends with benefits?" Ash says in a high pitched squeaky voice, a small giggle coming from me.

"Not really, I don't know, Ash." I say, and look towards Asher.

"I see, okay." He nods.

"We should watch a movie or something." I say, changing the subject.

"I like that idea." Ash says, pushing himself off of my bed.

He walks towards the TV and looks through the movies. I scoot up over to Devin, his arms quickly pulling me into him, a smile rising on my lips.

*

My head lies on Devins chest, the soft sound of his snores the only sound in the room. His body slowly rising and falling with every breathe he takes. My fingers lightly brush over the boys porcelain skin, my thoughts spinning.

I dont think ive ever honestly felt as happy as I do when im in Devin's presence. The boy just gets everything about me, talks to me about anything, Asher and him even get along extremly well. It makes it extremly hard not to want to just throw myself at this boy, and let him carry my heart in his hands. But fuck, thats a bloody terrifying thought. I dont want to give him everything, just to have him take it away and make me regret it.

The soft snores that were leaving his mouth cease, my hand stopping its movement. My body quickly is pulled to Devins, his arm going around my waist and pulling me in. He takes a deep breathe in and exhales it through his nose, a small smile rising on his lips.

"What time is it?" His voice lightly croaks out.

"Probably around four." I mumble, my body has been a bit restless tonight.

"What are you doing awake, beautiful?" He asks, his eyelids uncovering his eyes a little bit.

"I cant sleep, I guess there's just a lot on my mind." I reply to his question.

"Would you like to talk about it?" Another question leaves the boy, a smile rising on my lips.

"Youre too good for me." I shake my head a bit, a bit shocked he asked the question.

I hate comparing, but Chris never really asked to talk about it like that. He'd ask if I was okay but never seemed interested in hearing my answers. Devin genuinely seems to care, and its new for me.

His arms leave my body, I scoot away a bit as I feel him start to move. He sits himself up on the bed, urging me to come sit in front of him. Another smile finds its way on my lips, my body quickly up and in front of him. My back presses against his chest, his arms quickly wrapping around me. My head falls on his shoulder, his warmth again enveloping me.

"Whats on your mind?" He asks, his thumb lightly runnimg over the back of my hand.

"Its mainly you." I say, his arms tightening a bit around me. "Its nothing bad really, Im just a bit scared."

"About what?" His reply is short, but I know its not because hes upset. He's assesing the situation, in a way.

"I feel too embarassed to say it aloud." I mutter, closing my eyes.

"Dont be embarrassed." He matches my tone, his light words so reassuring.

"I know im going to fall in love with you the longer we stay together, and im afraid of giving my heart to someone again." I say quietly, still embarassed by my words.

"Please dont fear giving your heart to me. Because I also know im going to fall in love with you the longer we stay together. And it scares a part of me aswell, but a bigger part of me wants to take this," his hand slides over my heart, "and give it every piece of life residing in mine."

Tears instantly well up in my eyes with the words that left his lips. The response more than anything I couldve dreamed him to say.

"You're too good for me." I repeat my words from earlier, the words still holding their truth.

"I already ignored you saying that once, and im going to ignore you saying it again because it makes no sense." A large grin pops onto my lips, my heart swelling with his words. I press my face into his neck,the chainsaws in my stomach keeping me footed on earth.