My eyes blink open to pitch black, almost like my eyes are still closed but the only reason i know they're not closed is the sliver of light coming from a phone. I sit up and dig through the mess of sheets and blankets to pull out a phone. I frown my eyebrows as the bright light shines into my eyes. I groan softly at the bright light as my eyes slowly adjust to the light.
The time on the screen reads seven AM causing a small sigh to leave my throat. I slide Chris's shirt over my head, not wanting the reminder but not wanting to wear tight clothing. I manage to slip out of the bunk and walk to the front lounge place. I sit on one of the couches that's in the front and curl up.
I unlock the phone I still have in my hands to see if it's mine. It indeed is and there's tons of messages filling my phone. Most of them are from Asher and a few from my mom. Most of them are where are you, we're worried, contact us as soon as possible.
I dial in Asher's number and stick my phone to my ear.
"Oh my god, Alex. Are you okay?" My best friends worried voice almost screams into the phone.
"Yes, I'm sorry. I'm fine. I'm on the Motionless In White tour bus." I whisper holding my forehead in my hand.
"What the fuck happened?" He asks me obviously sounding shocked.
"You left and I fell into Chris. He convinced me to talk and then we talked." I say not wanting to remember what else happened.
"That's all?" He asks me knowing that's not all.
"We had sex."I say, regret obvious in my voice.
"Oh honey." He whispers sounding sad.
"I want to go home." I whisper feeling ready to cry.
"Where are you?" He asks me.
"I have no idea, I'm the only one awake." I say feeling the now obvious moving bus jerk to a stop.
"I think someones coming, I'll call you in a bit." I say.
"Okay, stay safe, I love you." He says.
"I love you too." I hang up right as someone comes from the front.
"Hey, Alex right?" The boy asks that's in front of me.
"Oh uh yeah, that's me. I'm sorry but I can't really see anything." I whisper.
The boy flips the light on and I'm faced with Ghost or Devin.
"Sorry if I disturbed you or anything, I just heard you talking, which I'm assuming was on the phone." He chuckles a bit. "But anyways, we're almost too Sacramento." He says causing me to nod.
"I'd say we could turn around but I'm afraid I'd get killed." He says.
"It's okay, I'll probably have Ash drive up and pick me up." I reply almost uncomfortable but yet I'm not.
"Who's Ash?" He asks me.
"He's my best friend, we're like brother and sister." I say with a nod.
"That's cool, I've never had a friend like that." He gives me a small smile earning a small one from me too.
"Do you want to sit up front and have some company so you're not all alone?" He asks me.
"That sounds nice, actually." I say standing up.
"Alright, but it's a bit chilly up there and since you're not wearing pants do you want a blanket?" I look down my eyes a bit wide. "Or some sweats, I have those too." He says with a small chuckle.
"I don't want to intrude." I say awkwardly.
"You're not intruding, I offered." He softly smiles again.
"Both would be nice." I say scratching my head a bit.
"I can do that." He smiles and makes his way too the back.
A few minutes later he comes out with some Jack Skellington pajama pants and a black and red comforter.
"So if these are too big they have ties on them." He smiles handing me the article of clothing and the blanket.
"Thank you so much." I whisper with a smile.
"It's no problem. I'll turn away if you want me to so you can put them on then I'll lead you the way." He replies and turns around.
What a gentleman.
I slide the warm pajama bottoms up my legs, liking the smell that is on them. They are a little bit big so I tighten them a bit with the strings.
"Okay, I'm done." I say causing him to walk a bit.
***
"So how do you know Chris, Balz, and Angelo?" Devin asks me after a few hours of talking about random crap, we're on the couches at this point, we're parked in a place where they need to be.
"Well, I met Chris randomly one day. He became my best friend and introduced me too Joshua and Angelo." I shrug a bit.
"How long ago was that?" He asks me.
"Almost six years." I say causing his eyebrows to go up.
"Wow that's a long time." He says causing me to nod.
"Yeah, considering I left for four of the years it's not too bad." I reply.
For some reason it's really easy to spill everything to this boy. Everything just slides out of my mouth easily.
"So I'm guessing there's history between you and Chris?" He asks me. I snort a bit before speaking.
"History, yeah. We were together for a while but Motionless In White had to go on tour, I couldn't go and Chris got super pissed off at me. It's the main reason I moved." He nods seeming a bit sad.
"I'm guessing it was a painful experience?" He asks me.
"My heart fucking was shred into thousands of pieces, or it's what it felt like." I say with a small nod. "And it doesn't help that what happened last night." I sigh.
"I'm sorry, I know things like that suck, but maybe it's a good thing. Because maybe it's your way of moving on?" He asks me.
"I have no idea at this point and that's why it hurts so bad." I sigh cuddling into the large comforter.
"Yeah, well honestly I feel like you should stay with us a few days so you know what your feelings are." He says.
"Like you guys would want me dragging along with you." I say with an eye roll.
"Honestly I don't mind you at all, and I'm pretty sure Rick and Ryan like you already, and then of course the other three love you." I laugh a bit at his words.
"I'll think about it. I'm not sure yet just because I'm not even prepared for something like this. Physically and mentally." He nods.
"Just think about it."
