Showers. Quite possibly one of the greatest inventions of all time. They allow you to escape from everyone for a while plus you can think about anything and everything while taking one. Sadly, they always have to come to an end because the hot water always runs out way before you're ready for it to run out.
Once the water turned cold, I quickly turned off the water and stepped out of the shower after somewhat drying myself off so the water wouldn't get all over the bathroom floor. I tossed the wet towel in a laundry basket then put my clothes on without even bothering to look in the mirror before I stepped out of the room.
When I stepped into the lounge, I found Dan and Will sitting next to each other and Dan looked at the ground as soon as he saw me come into the room. Will shot me a glare so I'm assuming Dan told him everything and already got him on his side. Everyone else was probably sleeping in, we had a show tonight and we needed all the sleep you can get with all the drama going on. Despite the glare, I decided to sit down on the couch across from them. "Hey guys."
"I'm going to go get something to drink." Dan mumbled and quickly stood up. He left the room before anyone could argue that it wouldn't be good to drink before a show.
"What the hell are you trying to accomplish, Kyle?" Will practically yelled as soon as he made sure Dan wasn't in the room anymore. "You get him a ring and tell him you love him then the next day you want to break up with him because you don't trust him? Do you not realize how much he cares about you? He hates what they're doing to you guys just as much as you do."
Oh god, this was going to be a long day already. "I didn't say that I wanted to break up with him, I care about him way too much for that to happen. Breaking up with him hasn't even crossed my mind. I was just stating what was going to happen if he kept keeping secrets from me. I can't have him keeping stuff from me."
"Kyle, he kept it from you because he didn't want you to like her. Deep down, he doesn't want to trust her either, he has to though. I don't know if you've noticed or not but when you have to go out on a date or tweet about her, he gets super upset." Will paused for a second then continued on. "He wants to be the only one in your life and I know that he is, you can't help that she's there too. He just wants to be the only one kissing you. He wants to be taking you out on dates and tweeting about you but he can't and it's killing him. This is just as hard for him as it is for you."
"I'll talk to him about it later. I don't want to have a conversation right now if he's not going to remember it tomorrow thanks to the beer." I stood up and walked out of the room, ignoring the protests from Will. It wasn't long until I found myself lying on my bed letting the tiredness take over.
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I was shaken awake a couple hours later by Woody who looked just as exhausted as I did. "As much as I hate to do this to you, it's time to wake up. We've already done the soundcheck without you because Will told everyone it'd be best not to wake you, but.. er.. we kind of need you for the show."
I yawned while nodding in response at the same time. The show tonight was going to go quite well. Will probably hates me, Woody looks like a racoon with the dark circles under his eyes, and Dan has most likely had way too much to drink. If you couldn't tell, the statement about the show going well was sarcasm.
I got up out of bed quickly and decided to just keep the clothes I had on on for the concert tonight. There was no point in changing and I didn't really feel like changing anyway. It wasn't like the outfit wasn't something I would normally wear either, it was just a cat shirt and a pair of jeans. Same old, same old.
Woody must've left to join the others inside the venue because the tour bus was dead silence. I figured I should probably join them right now considering this was my job. I hurried towards the venue, shutting the tour bus door behind me and then also shutting the backstage door once I had made it inside. Dan was sitting down on a couch and Will was knelt down beside him, holding up a glass of water towards Dan. He must've been hoping that the water would sober him up some because Dan looked like a complete mess right now. "See? This is what happens when you don't talk to him right away."
I turned my gaze away for a split second, feeling a wave of guilt wash over me but turned back to look at the two of them again. I needed to learn how to start taking responsibility for my own actions. "Is he alright?"
"Does he look alright?" Will snapped back, obviously feeling annoyed. "In case you haven't noticed, we have to go on stage in a couple of minutes and you know how he acts when he's drunk. He's going to say something and our career.."
"Quit worrying, it's going to be fine," I assured him although I wasn't quite sure of that myself. Tonight's concert was going to be... interesting and it wouldn't be a huge shock if we couldn't even get through it. "Let's just go out there and pretend nothing's wrong."
Will finally calmed down after a bit and the four of us walked onto the stage. Dan went first just so one of us could hold him up if he started to wobble. He wobbled a bit and almost fell at least twice but it wasn't that noticeable.
"Hii guys." Dan finally said into the microphone. I kept my eyes glued on the wall at the back of the room, trying my best to overlook the crowd. I felt like I could get sick at any moment, who knew what Dan was going to say. "Our first song's called 'Things We Lost in the Fire' but before that, I would like to tell you all something."
I could feel my heartbeat increasing drastically. Every word was one step closer to revealing the truth, the truth that wasn't ready to be revealed yet. "You all know Kyle, right? Our keyboard player, Kyle. Wave to them please, Ky." A couple girls in the crowd screamed but I kept my hand down, almost unable to move. "I'm in love with him and not in the way you're thinking either. I mean in the romantic way, not the friend way. I want to marry this man someday but that might not happen because of our management. They think our relationship is wrong and do you want to know what I think about that? I think that they're all-"
Before Dan could finish, the sound was suddenly cut off and the lights went black.
