Wish I Was Home

Harry

"I need you to come home?" Louis cried into the phone.

"What's going on? Is it Freddie?" I asked. He didn't even have to tell me what was going on, I was already out the door. No bags; nothing. I was going to London. Thanks heavens I was only in Manchester.

"No just please come," he cried. I had never heard Louis cry before not like that anyhow. He was an emotional person and always had been. But that type of crying wasn't just emotional it was from a breaking heart.

"Who hurt you Lou?" I said through my teeth as I drove to the private airstrip I used. I thought someone had hurt him and I was seeing red.

"It's mum," was all he managed to get out.

Louis' mum, Johanna or Jay as she was called her died only weeks after. I was beside Louis and his family along with Freddie during the whole thing. I sat in the hospital with him day after day and night after night. We sat with her, held her hand, and talked. Louis and I told her about how smart Freddie was and how much we loved him.

"You two need to work on your relationship," she told us the day before she died. "You know you're destined to be together but you need to communicate better. The love I see between the two of you is amazing and something I've had with your stepfather and yes at one point with your dad. Don't waste this boys. You have a beautiful son who needs the both of you."

"We won't," I told her and reached for Louis' hand. "I love your son more than anyone in this world. He's my home." We weren't together but I was honest. Louis would always be my home.

Louis looked at me with tears falling down his cheeks, I assume mostly from what his mum had said and maybe partly from what I had said.

"And you," she looked at Louis. "Fix your shit with Zayn." She told him pointing her finger at him. "Life is too fucking short Louis. Don't hold on to this anger at him."

"After what he said you want me to forgive him?" Louis grumbled.

"It was only words Lou," she reminded him with her motherly smile. "They hurt you but didn't kill you my love."

"She was always right," Louis said looking down at the ground where his mother had just been lowered into. "She knew we were meant to be together. She knew it before I did. She loved you Harry."

I put my arm around him and held him close to my side. "I loved her Lou she was like a second mum to me."

Fizz took my other side and weaved her arm through mine. I leaned over and kissed her temple. "Love you Fizzy." I told her.

"Love you Hazzy," she said. She wiped her eyes with her tissue. "I can't believe she's really gone."

"I know," I whispered. "I know."

I stayed with Louis and his family longer than what Jeff would have liked but I couldn't have cared less. He would not pull a Simon on me and pull Louis and I apart. My husband needed me and I would be there for him.

Only six months later I would get my own tragedy. My stepdad died. He had been diagnosed with cancer and I can't lie I thought I would have more time with him. I was wrong. Louis was there for me just as I'd been with him. He held my hand and dried my tears. He held me when I broke down just knowing my stepdad was gone forever. He stayed with me at my house. He would lie next to me not saying a word but letting me know he was there.

We were close during that time but it ended just as quickly as it had began.

Louis started on the X-Factor as a guest judge and had to sit by Simon night after night and I hated it. He had stayed with the management we all once shared. I hated that too.