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Children of tragedy

Thinking about your childhood, it was nice until Kei passed away, things went downhill from there.

You still remember your first crush being Draken, you were 10, Baji used to poke fun at you whenever he came even remotely close to you.

"Heyy Draken," Kei used to say. Poor Draken came to him every time, you felt flushed.

Kei just smirked and said, "Crush..."

Your eyes widened and you whipped your head at him.

"...Crush the enemies of Toman!" Draken just looked at him so cluelessly before nodding and leaving.

Eventually, your crush on him stopped when you heard about Emma Sano's affection towards him (also you were tired of Kei constantly teasing you.) Even when your puppy crush dissolved, you still thought he was attractive.

Which he still is and you still think he is attractive.

Your second crush was Mitsuya Takashi, you were 11 at that time, changing crushes like people change clothes.

You couldn't help it! He was just so kind and dreamy and respectful and pretty and...

Your last crush was Kazutora Hanemiya, You were 12 at that time and Keisuke was 14. Kazutora was a man you later came to hate and call your brother's killer.

It wasn't his fault, but your 10-year-old brain kept blaming him again and again. What happened next is history.

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October 31st 2005

Your doorbell rang with a 'ding-dong' sound. You rushed to the door but before opening it, you asked for the person's name just like your brother had taught you.

"Who?" you asked.

"Chifuyu," the voice answered in a muffled manner.

You looked through the peephole just to confirm once, opening the door you greeted him with a big smile.

"Chifuyu-san!"

"Hey Y/N," he replied with a placid smile.

"Where is big brother?" you asked.

A melancholic smile etched upon his face, eyes that shined brightly with warmth, and the stillness that lingered in the air made you shiver.

You asked again, thinking he didn't hear you, "where is Keisuke ?"

He kept a hand on your shoulder, from behind the door you could see tufts of lilac hair and a braid. Your heart dropped.

You looked back at him, noticing the bloodstains on his shirt.

"Where is big-brother?" you asked through your voice breaking, gasps of pain shaking your body wildly.

"I am sorry," he sobbed out, "it's my fault, I couldn't save him..."

"You are joking right?" you scrunched your eyebrows hoping this was some kind of sick prank Keisuke had planned out and that he would rush from his side of the door and smack you on your head while calling you a baby for believing him.

But the tears and guilt on Chifuyu's face were as real as they could get.

"How...how did this happen?" you asked through tears streaming down your face. He narrated the story to you, hugging you to control your wails of despair. You blamed Kazutora for everything, unable to realize that your brother had killed himself.