If I Only Were

I Was Wrong, Completely Wrong

I think I've read that conversation through a hundred times. Probably more.
Well, there's nothing to do about it now. I just can't get over the fact that they would do something like that. Especially Cecelia.
Well, I guess it just proves the point that I am a worthless piece of trash.
I don't really have anyone here. Calum is still gone... The Internet is gone... Life was gone.
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Calum texted me the next day.

How are you making out?

Terrible.

I'd reply with.
Then, I got an immediate reply. An actual call.
I answered it. "H-hello?" I choked, trying not to let tears form in my eyes.
"Aria! I miss you." He stated.
"I miss you too.
"Listen, I'm gonna ask my parents if we can come home early. I really need you, and you really need me. We need each other."
"Calum. It's fine! I can handle myself. I don't want you to come home and stop being happy because of me."
"How could I stop being happy? You're my best friend. And being with you would make me the happiest person ever."
"No. Calum, I just depress everyone around me, so what's the point?"
"No! Aria, you make me happy."
"I think you're just lying to protect my feelings."
"Stop that. This really kills me."
"What kills you?"
"Seeing you like this."
"Seeing me like what? What I truly am?"
"No. It kills me to see such a beautiful person like you be this sad. You deserve way better than this."
"Calum..." My voice started scratching up.
"I love you, Aria."
"I love you too."
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When I hung up from the call, I got a message. From Cecelia.
Oh great, what does she want? To stab me even more?
It read:
Aria, I'm really sorry for those brats. I'm really, truly sorry.
They planned that whole conversation for a month and just told me about it now. I honestly love you to pieces (as a friend) and feel like Addison and Gracie were never really true friends.
They just wanted someone to break. Someone so delicate like you.
So again, I'm really sorry for how they treated you. In my mind, none of them are real. They're all fakes trying to put down someone who is real as heck.
Don't let them get to you. You are perfect and beautiful and amazing.
Stay strong.
Love,
Cecelia.

Wait? What? I thought she was in that conversation too.
I read it through again.
She wasn't involved.
This was something big. I had to apologize.
So I commented under it:
Cecelia,
I'm sorry for being an honest to god idiot and believing that you were a part of that chat. I should apologize to you, not you to me.
Anyways, thanks for being there for me.
Love you (not in that way)

I read what she said, then what I said over and over again. I think the part that got me the most was the stay strong.
She really gets it, doesn't she?
I'm such a lucky person. I have to people who will be there for me, even in death.

Then I texted Calum.

Don't worry, I'm going to be fine without you for another month. I may be broken, but I'm slowly being healed.

Then he texted back.

I'll still love you, no matter how broken you are.