If I Only Were

Dear Calum

Dear Calum,
I think I've written this over about fifty times, looking for the right words. And what I have is probably still not enough.
What I feel for you: It's indescribable. But it's definitely love. I love you Calum, but I need you to get over me.
I apologize for writing this. Please do not get angry. My fate is sealed. And please don't cry, it would kill me to see you cry.
Calum, you are amazing. Never forget that. Any girl would do anything to date you. You are so easy going and happy. Never change that. Especially because of me.
You have an amazing smile. It could light up the world. And your laugh, I love it. How could I have not fallen in love with you?
Thank you for your smile. The only one I'd ever see in a day. It's meant the world to me. And even though I didn't smile back, I wanted to.
You are the reason I still stand on this earth. I want nothing more for the one I love to be happy.
Keep being optimistic. It's one of your best traits. You never know what's ahead, but you are ready to face it anyway. With you, I could do anything.

Calum, keep going in happiness. Don't let me hold you back.
Me? I want you to be happy. That's the thing I want more than anything in this whole world.
So stay happy, for me.
Let me go. Don't let me hold you up. I'm not worthy of you. So keep going, in my memory, and live. Live on, and don't look back on the past.
I love you, but I am letting go. I think you should do the same.
Like I said before, any girl would kill to date you. So go out there and just stay happy.
If there's ever a day I didn't think about you, I would be dead already, so please, live on for me.
Keep your smile, because it shines so bright. Keep it forever. That's what I love about you.
Keep going, in my memory, but never look back.
Thank you for being there. For smiling for me. For understanding and knowing something was up. Thank you...
And it may be cheesy, but...
Wô ài nî.
Je t'aime.
Ich liebe dich.
Te amo.
Aishiteimasu.
I love you.

Please live on, and forget about me, because, you deserve so much better than what I've given you.
Stay Strong.

With Great Love,
Aria