Beyond our eyes | COMPLETED

Dark clouds filled with stars

"Who's Hakim?" I asked

He looked at me with a look I couldn't quite decipher "you're just asking because you want help with your situation" he said blandly

"Do you want me to be asking for another reason?" I retorted.
"Just fuck off" he said and stood up
"It's not like it's just my situation, news flash, were somehow in this mess together" i pointed out but he was walking away.
Oh hell no! I followed him

"What on earth is your problem?" I asked following him.
"You act like you're so tough and unbothered when you're actually not. You don't want anything to do with me but you're mad cause you think I'm asking just for myself" I voiced out.
"Does that make any sense?" I shook my head asking.

"No" he yelled turning to face me, "none of this makes sense" he stated.
"But it's real, everything. Tell me you don't feel it too?"  I asked, at this point I wasn't just talking about the crazy things but also the spark between us.
I feel what you're feeling Dinah, this connection that draws me to you, but I know it's not real, it's just because of this whole situation we have going on" he spoke from his point of view.
Rocco was going off point but i knew he was heading somewhere.
Something told me i had to break all his walls to finally be able to cooperate with him.

"We need to avoid connection with each other cause as soon as we figure out what's going on. It all dies, the attraction, everyone leaves and goes back to their normal life" he said.

I put my hand on my hips looking at him then welded forward and kissed him, fulfilling the burning desire I've been trying to hold back on.
i pulled out before he got the chance to kiss me back and said "we can't avoid each other, all the bad things happening clearly states otherwise"

I kissed him again and this time, he kissed back pulling my body to his, showing how bad he has been longing for this

I pushed him back and said "I got two things from what you just said though" Rocco hmm, still in the kiss trance but i continued talking
"One, You're hurt and alone. Two,  you're scared of getting close to me and I leave when this whole attraction phase is over. That's why you're also scared of opening up, telling me everything then getting attached and I leave" I said and he just stared at me.

"Do you shun everyone that tries to get close to you too?" I intruded
"Rocco, I don't know how things are going to be when we sort thing out and I don't know if I'll still be this attracted to you honestly speaking but one thing is sure, I'll be your friend, I'll be here" I said.
"Let's not think that far yet, all i know is we need to take this one step at a time to end this"

"I understand and that you don't want to talk about Hakim, must be a personal thing but Rocco, there's no time. I know i said one step at a time but we're going to be taking these steps fast" i ranted
"I've been trying to avoid the thought of this but the possibility that I might actually be pregnant is real" I said carrying his hand and placing it on my stomach.

"This could be your child. The earlier we get to the bottom of this, the better" I said watching the expression on his face as i did so.

He sighed "give me time" he said slowly and left not giving me a chance to say anything more. Shit! He asked for the one thing I had no control of.
I sighed and sat back down on the couch, watching tv.
Unfortunately, one thing you can't do in life is control other people or pace their healing process.

When it was mid afternoon, I headed to the kitchen to make us dinner.
Rocco still hasn't left the room since the talk we had and I decided to give him some space but prayed he'd come around soon.

After making dinner, spaghetti and meatballs and Rocco still hadn't come out, I decided to check up on him. At least tell him to come eat or something.
Good food might help.