Beyond our eyes | COMPLETED

They mystery of the Covenant

"I know that I wasn't there when anything happened, and I'm prolly not the one to say anything about it" I said after we left the shop and we were both sitting in the car.

"But from what it looks like, you shouldn't have pushed everyone away" I said looking at him
"You weren't the only one sad about what happened, you weren't the only one who was hurt" I said

"When rough times come, one of the best thing to do is stick with genuine people that love you. There's a difference between isolating for good and when you're self destructing"

"I don't need a lecture from you, mommy" he said dryly as he started his car
I smiled sarcastically at him not saying anything.
The truth is hard to comprehend but I know he knows I am right.
How long will he deny?

I left it as it was as we made our way to the asylum.
The reason Rocco wanted to see his uncle before going to the asylum was for moral support.
I guess i failed to properly understand how traumatizing this is for him. He went into total freak out mode, totally understandable judging from what happened.

I know I said I wouldn't say anything but thinking about what happened made me say
"all I can say is, i wish I had genuine elderly ones who would've have fended for me, who was going to give me a warm hug if I ever needed one, take me in and raise me. Unlike my family, the only one i saw was my dad's uncle..... never really liked my anyways plus my remarried as soon as he can, didn't have time for me. I said and I felt Rocco look at me from my side eye.

"You had Emmanuel and Jessica" he stated softly

"Yes and I'm grateful" i responded "but i felt like a burden, was self destructive. Trust me when I say there's a thin line between isolating and self destructing, Just have to know which part you're on "
Rocco didn't say anything else so we drove quietly to the the asylum.

When we approached a white gate, i knew we where there. "church hospital?" I asked seeing the huge cross sign on the building
"Not exactly" He shrugged then added "I guess so"
"It does take the grace of God to handle some cases" said Rocco and i nodded, totally agreeing with him.

The building was quite big, a big cross sign at the front roof.
Immediately I came down from the car, my stomach started to churn.
"I have a bad feeling about this"
I said closing the car door. Rocco was at the other side and I'm pretty sure he didn't hear me.
It's the kind of stomach upset you get when you're nervous, except I wasn't at all nervous. I need answers badly, if anything Rocco is the one that would be nervous, not me.

I took steps forward but i felt myself get weaker as I did so. Rocco was by my side now but wasn't too sensitive to notice what was happening.
The force of wind became really heavy and my head was starting to spin
"No" I heard an inhuman voice scream in my head as the force of the wind had me hit my back on Rocco's car.

"What's wrong?" Rocco rushed to my side as I fell.
"Something is wrong" I said, leaning in the hook of his car "I don't think I'm supposed to be here" I said shaking my head.
"Feels like every step I take closer to the front gate, I become more weak" I explained.

Rocco looked deep in thoughts as he looked at me then uttered "what is it's the opposite?"
I looked at him, waiting for an explanation and he said "you're supposed to be here that's why they're attacking you"
It made sense "could be" i said. What I'm not going to do is back out, i need answers.
"Look at me" Rocco stood in front of me, holding me.
"I think that means we're doing the right thing" he said and I nodded.

"Just try lift me up" I said holding Rocco's arm as support
"I got you" he said lifting me up effortlessly.

He helped me take steps forward while I tried to ignore how I felt as I got closer to the door.