Beyond our eyes | COMPLETED

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When Rocco saw the small box i earlier brought to his house fully loaded and ready to go, his face fell in a way I'd never seen before.

"You're actually leaving?" He said shocked when he walked inside the room. I turned to face him "you didn't knock" i said giving him a look but he didn't look fazed, his eyes still strained on my luggage "and yes i am" i added.

"Why?" He asked coming closer to the bed, where I was seated.
"We don't have to be together all the time anymore, that rule is broken" i said.
"We still have to, for wringley ville, remeber?" He tried to convince me and i nodded

"Yes Rocco, I remember. I remember your dad saying we have to be there when I'm seven months pregnant " i emphasized on the seven  "when its time, we'll go there. For now, there's honestly no need staying together, you know it" i said staring at him.
He kept quiet for a while then said "who's going to look after you?" He asked quietly and i responded "I'm not a child Rocco, been taking care of myself for a while now"

"What of our baby?" He asked again and i rolled my eyes "the child is going to be fine. Stop acting like moving out is a big deal when you're the one that caused it for yourself" i said zipping my bag.
"How?" He asked again and i stood up "stop acting dumb, it's beginning to piss me off" i warned then sighed closing my eyes.

"Just please drive me home" i rubbed my head as i felt a bit of ache
"Sooner or later, I'm going to move out anyways. If you want to check in on me about the baby or anything, you're always welcome to visit but i just can't be here anymore" i explained and he nodded.

"When you're done, I'll be waiting" he said then headed out.
I looked at his retreating figure sadly and continued packing.

When i was done, i took my luggage out.
Rocco wasn't in the parlor, and my first instinct was to freak out because, due to the pact, i was used to Rocco always being close by.

Where could this boy have gone?
I decided to take my bags to his car while waiting for him. Maybe he needed time, i guess I've been to hard on him.
When I opened the door, prepared to take my loads out, i saw Rocco sitting on the staircase, playing with his wrist watch.

He didn't even bother to turn around when I opened the door, just caught up in his watch.
I passed him, taking my bags to the backseat of his car. When i placed it there, i walked back the stairs and sat beside Rocco.
We were silent for a while, then i said "isn't it funny?" I started and he turned to look at me, pain in his eyes "how easy it is to get attached to people" i said and he just stared at me, not saying anything, i looked right back at him then faced my front after a minute.

"How life throws so many obstacles at you, when you figure out one, an even bigger problem comes" i talked.   "That's one way to look at it" Rocco spoke and i glanced at him for a moment.

"I used to swear that no one has had it as hard as me" i said "i know what it feels like to work for everything you've ever wanted and I'm so hurt because i felt like i had reached the silver lining" I explained.

"I felt like i had gone through so many problems that when i made it, I thought that was it. Finally my silver lining" i continued, still facing my front tho i could feel his eyes on me

"Boys weren't really my problem, had gotten used to the fact a huge percent of them only wanted to smash. Helped me avoid them and the few ones I couldn't avoid only proved my thought to be right" i smiled humorously and looked at him. There was a glint in his eyes.

"You Rocco" i said as i looked in his eyes "are quite different. I'm not going to hide what I'm feeling. Hell, it grows everyday and since I can't have you, i can't be next to you" I explained "it's only right i take this time away for myself, isn't it?" I said
Rocco didn't say anything, just looked at me for a second then dropped his head down, so his eyes were facing the floor. I guess there's nothing for him to say.