Beyond our eyes | COMPLETED

30 Lucid dreams

ROCCO'S POV

After three years, i still haven't been able to move on.
How can i? When you're still laying in front of me?
I stared at Dinahs body which laid in the hospital bed. She has been in a coma since that incident

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3 years ago

"Blood of Jesus, what is happening?" Kiki exclaimed as she touched Dinah's lifeless figure in my arms.

Orro kept praying and chanting, not being interrupted with the noise.
"I'll explain later" i told her but she still looked around, finding it hard to grasp what was happening in front of her.
I didn't care about that at all, all that mattered was the almost dead lady that laid in my arms.

"Help her push" Orro instructed Kiki and Kiki looked confused bit still obliged. She put her hands on top of Dinah's belly, trying to push the baby. If Kiki wasn't a nurse then I'd be surely doomed.
The leg came out, the body and then the head. Kiki carried the baby but i was too terrified at the numb woman that laid before me
"The curse has been lifted, it is now up to her to live" Orro said.

**
Present day

It was our son's birthday and just like every other of his birthdays, i found my way to the hospital, looking at his mother.

After the second year of her coma, Emmanuel and Jessica dragged me out of the hospital saying that i needed to live. Even if not for me, for Dinah and our sweet little boy Daniel.

I couldn't argue with them so i stopped slacking, stopped coming here as much as i used to til it became a habit.
This was currently the first time in a full year that I've visited.

Being in her presence again made me feel guilty. It made me remember all the times we had and i hated it.
I'll be real with my self, i have had sex with other girls since this accident happened but i never felt happy afterwards. A part of me just wanted to do anything to forget the past, make me feel good.

I always felt the guilt. I was living my best life and she was on the hospital bed suffering.

Her son doesn't even know about her existence, except the little of her he sees in his horror dreams.

I combed her hair with my fingers with one question on my mind
Will you ever wake up?

DINAH'S POV
I've found my way out!
Well not yet, but I've figured it out...... i hope.

They're moments where i feel human again...... if i can continue to generate that feeling and act on it, i think I'll be able to pull through. It has to work.

As usual, my trance started with my son.
I was in his dreams and I'm going to try one of my theories on him. The only time i feel human is when i have soul to soul interactions with him and Rocco.
So far, I've been able to count how many times I've felt this way with my son because he at doesn't give me much time to feel this way as he's always frightened with my sight and runs away from me.

Neither does Rocco too because he tries to push every feeling related to me so i just have to get them at the right time, when they're in their out of their head, in between physical and spiritual...... when they are in their feelings.

My trance with my son started in his dreams.
I watched in a corner as he had fun with his toys, alone in a playground.
I quietly walked up to an ice cream stand, nearby..... trying not to alert him so he wouldn't bolt in fear.
My appearance was as scary as it had been since I found this place. Covered in blood, hair scattered , wounds on my face...... that's why my boy, Daniel is always scared.