JENLISA IMAGINES

Dropped Pt. 1 (A)

Jennie called Lisa for the 10th time and, again, it went straight to her voicemail. She took out the wrapped gift from her bag and twiddled with the jewelry box. Lisa had said numerous times that she doesn't need expensive and flashy things, Jennie by her side is more than enough. But Jennie decided as soon as she saw the longing in Lisa's eyes when looking at the expensive necklace, that she has to get Lisa the jewelry, even if it means living off of instant ramens and Mcdonalds for a while.
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Jennie and Lisa found themselves inside a jewelry store during one of their shopping dates.

"You see something you like?"

Lisa turned her gaze to Jennie and slowly walked towards her. She took Jennie's hands with hers and gently lifted them up to her lips.

"When you're with me, I always do." Jennie then knew that the girl holding her hand is now in charge of holding her heart. For better or worse.
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It had almost been an hour of Jennie waiting for Lisa at this fancy restaurant to celebrate their one-year anniversary. As if sensing her distress, the waitress approached Jennie and asked if she was expecting her company any time soon.

"Just a few minutes more, maybe she'll show up soon," Jennie said, holding on to the single thread of hope that remained. Maybe she just got caught up in class, she thought, even though she knew that Lisa's classes should have ended hours ago.

The waitress looked at her with sympathy. "I'm sorry, honey. If she made you wait for an hour, maybe she's not worth a minute more."

"It's supposed to be our one-year anniversary," Jennie mumbled. "I'm sorry. I'll just go." She got out of the restaurant before she can embarrass herself further.

As Jennie arrived at their apartment, she sat at the table, resting her head on her hands, pushing back thoughts that something bad might have happened to Lisa. An hour later, Jennie heard the door open. She quickly stood up and approached Lisa.

"Where were you?"

"Why? I was with Diana. We were studying for an upcoming exam," Lisa said nonchalantly.

Jennie balled up her fists, anger taking over her body. "Well, do you wanna know where I was?"

"Not really. But fine, please indulge me," Lisa said sarcastically as she walked across the room to get a glass of water.

"I fucking waited for an hour at the restaurant. I looked like a fucking idiot, Lisa!" Jennie said, biting back the tears that were threatening to spill.

"What were you doing there anyway?" Lisa asked as she chugged the glass of water.

Silence

"Oh shit, that's today? Sorry, I forgot." Lisa said in such a calm manner that just managed to anger Jennie more.

"I reminded you yesterday. I texted you about that earlier today." Jennie's teeth were grinding.

"My phone was off the whole day. Look, sorry, I'm tired. Can we talk about this in the morning?"

Jennie stared at her incredulously.

"It's our one-year anniversary, Lisa! Is that what you're only gonna say?" The anger in Jennie's voice now replaced with pain.

Lisa snapped. "Oh, sorry. How about, I'm so fucking happy that I've spent one year with you nagging me?!"

"Nagging?-

Jennie smelled the hint of alcohol on Lisa.

-are you drunk?"

"We might have had a few drinks. Listen, we'll talk in the morning. I can't handle you shouting right now." Lisa started retreating to the bedroom.

"I have every right to be mad Lisa, you forgot our anniversary and didn't even bother to update me! And it's not just even that. Lately, you've always been spending time with your new friend like I don't even exist!" Jennie's voice was breaking.

Lisa stops, looks back at Jennie momentarily, and then continues her way to the bedroom, shutting the door without uttering a single word.

Jennie stared at the closed door, still hoping that this was just some kind of mean joke. That when she opens the door, Lisa will be waiting with open arms. I'm kidding babe, of course I didn't forget. Smiling that goddamn smile that always managed to ease all her pains and worries even on her worst days. The smile that promised love and forever. It's you and me against the world, babe.

But she knew deep down that nothing like that is gonna happen. What hurt her the most were not Lisa's remarks, it's not even the fact that Lisa forgot their anniversary, but it's how she looked at her like she's not even worth any more of her time. Like she was nothing.
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On a lazy Saturday evening, Jennie and Lisa were lying in bed, Jennie's head was on Lisa's shoulder while one of Lisa's arms was wrapped around Jennie's waist. Jennie was typing on her laptop while Lisa was reading a book.

"I love you."

After the stunned silence that followed, Jennie looked back at Lisa with a shocked expression.

"Wha- what did you say?"

Lisa was looking at her with stars in her eyes like she's the most gorgeous woman in the world. "I said, I love you."

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Jennie walked over to the bedroom seeing that Lisa was fast asleep, and, instead of the usual warmth that comes with it, an immense pain spread towards her chest. She stared at Lisa for a while as she came to the realization that she had been too cowardly to admit. Lisa had dropped her heart and she is now left alone to pick up the pieces. "You don't love me anymore, do you?"