Distance (A Sam Woolf Fanfiction)

Chapter 33: Let Her Go

AUTHORS NOTE
This is incredibly bittersweet because this will be my final authors note for distance. So yes, that means that this is the final chapter in this book. I've been writing this story for a little over a year now and I can't believe how many people have taken the time out of their day to read it. Thank you so much to anyone whose even read a single line of this story and thank you to anyone whose messaged me or talked to me on Twitter about the story. You have made me want to continue this story and more importantly you've shown me that I can be a writer and pursue that passion.

Finally, I would like to announce a sequel to Distance!! The book will be entitled "Resistance" and should hopefully be out by the summer. I'm thinking I won't publish the first chapter until after final exams.

So one more time, thank you for reading and commenting and just being you guys! I love you all so much and I really hope you enjoy the final chapter!
-J Twitter: @woolfpackraw

LILS POV

Looking back on it now, I don't remember much of what happened with Josh that night. I don't even remember getting hit, what I do remember though is staring up at the stars and hearing Sam's voice. At the time, I thought I was going crazy or that my dying brained wanted to believe he was there, but I guess he was.

What Sam doesn't know is that I had heard everything. Everything he had confessed to me whilst I was unconscious I had heard. I knew how guilty he felt and my heart cracked as he begged me to stay. I wanted so desperately to go, I want to be with my mom. I don't feel like I have a purpose here anymore and for me to have survived seems unfair. I love Sam, but I don't want to be here.

Yet, here I am, one whole month later, buttoning up my graduation gown. This day always seemed so far away, but as I adjust my cap one last time I realize that it's truly here. After all this time, it's time to say goodbye to all I've ever known. Immediately, the tears begin to build in my eyes. Max and Lou would be staying here for college. Devinn would be on her way to Miami, Sam to tour and I to New York.

"Lil? You ok in there?" Sam asks thoughtfully through the door. Ever since I woke up he's been by my side. It's sweet, really, but sometimes I would just rather be alone. I hear the door creak open slightly as he enters the room.

"Hey..." He says hesitantly as I turn to face him. "It's time." He pauses for a moment and looks intently into my eyes. His hair is done to perfection, the black robe making his green eyes stand out effortlessly.

"Lil, what's wrong?" He asks gently, making his way towards me.

"Its nothing..."

"Its something...just please talk to me. You've been so distant for the past couple of weeks. Did I do something wrong?" The hurt in his eyes tears at my heartstrings. He's done absolutely everything right. He's been perfect and loving and kind. That's why I'm so terrified for today. Today's the day he finds out the secret I've been keeping. I've decided on going to NYU. Sam's still under the impression that I'll be going to Boston College. After everything that's happened to me this year, I just need to get away from everyone, including Sam.

Plus, Alex told me that Sam's been thinking about not going on idol tour so he can stay with me. The last thing I want right now is too feel like I'm holding him back from success. I don't know how I'm going to convince him to go, but he has too and maybe us going to college in different states will forced him to reevaluate the choice he's made.

"Its nothing, really. I'm just nervous about the speech that the principles making me give." I lie. I don't want him to find out at graduation, but I don't know any other way to tell him without breaking his heart. Its selfish and awful, I know. But at least I won't have to see his eyes shift in confusion.